1 00:00:04,166 --> 00:00:06,333 -Next on "Great Performances"... 2 00:00:06,333 --> 00:00:08,400 -♪ It's been four weeks since the treatment, 3 00:00:08,400 --> 00:00:10,533 and my mind is still a mess ♪ 4 00:00:10,533 --> 00:00:12,700 ♪ And what's left to be remembered 5 00:00:12,700 --> 00:00:15,000 well, it's anybody's guess ♪ 6 00:00:15,000 --> 00:00:16,866 -Join us for an intimate portrait of 7 00:00:16,866 --> 00:00:19,333 one family's struggle with a tragic loss 8 00:00:19,333 --> 00:00:21,933 and a mother's battle with bipolar disorder. 9 00:00:21,933 --> 00:00:23,266 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 10 00:00:23,266 --> 00:00:25,200 -Unresolved loss can lead to depression. 11 00:00:25,200 --> 00:00:26,666 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 12 00:00:26,666 --> 00:00:28,166 -Fear of loss to anxiety. 13 00:00:28,166 --> 00:00:30,700 -A father strives to hold everything together. 14 00:00:30,700 --> 00:00:33,433 -♪ Take this chance ♪ 15 00:00:33,433 --> 00:00:36,133 ♪ 'Cause it may be your last ♪ 16 00:00:36,133 --> 00:00:37,366 ♪ To be free ♪ 17 00:00:37,366 --> 00:00:40,000 -A neglected daughter tries to find her way. 18 00:00:40,000 --> 00:00:43,333 -♪ Take a look at the invisible girl ♪ 19 00:00:43,333 --> 00:00:46,266 ♪ Here she is clear as the day ♪ 20 00:00:46,266 --> 00:00:49,800 -And together, they look for a brighter future. 21 00:00:49,800 --> 00:00:51,700 Stay tuned for the Tony Award- 22 00:00:51,700 --> 00:00:54,666 and Pulitzer Prize-winning musical "Next to Normal." 23 00:00:54,666 --> 00:00:58,466 -♪ Light ♪ 24 00:01:00,166 --> 00:01:02,333 ♪♪ 25 00:01:02,333 --> 00:01:04,466 Major funding for "Great Performances" 26 00:01:04,466 --> 00:01:05,633 is provided by... 27 00:01:10,500 --> 00:01:12,800 ...and by contributions to your PBS station 28 00:01:12,800 --> 00:01:14,233 from viewers like you. Thank you. 29 00:01:15,800 --> 00:01:18,433 This program contains content that is not suitable 30 00:01:18,433 --> 00:01:21,100 for all audiences, including descriptions of self-harm. 31 00:01:21,100 --> 00:01:22,800 Viewer discretion is advised. 32 00:01:24,433 --> 00:01:29,966 ♪♪ 33 00:01:29,966 --> 00:01:35,533 ♪♪ 34 00:01:35,533 --> 00:01:41,066 ♪♪ 35 00:01:41,066 --> 00:01:46,600 ♪♪ 36 00:01:46,600 --> 00:01:51,300 -[ Sighs ] 37 00:01:51,300 --> 00:01:52,600 -What are you doing up? 38 00:01:52,600 --> 00:01:54,400 -[ Scoffs ] 39 00:01:54,400 --> 00:01:56,000 -It's 3:30. 40 00:01:56,000 --> 00:01:58,766 ♪ It's the seventh night this week I've sat till morning ♪ 41 00:01:58,766 --> 00:02:01,533 -Oh! Great! Here we go. 42 00:02:01,533 --> 00:02:04,800 -♪ Imagining the ways you might have died ♪ 43 00:02:04,800 --> 00:02:06,833 -Yep! And tonight's winner is? 44 00:02:06,833 --> 00:02:10,533 -♪ In a freak September ice-storm with no warning ♪ 45 00:02:10,533 --> 00:02:12,100 -'Cause that happens. 46 00:02:12,100 --> 00:02:15,600 ♪ There's a gang war, there's a bird flu, trains collide ♪ 47 00:02:15,600 --> 00:02:17,033 -What did we say about watching the news? 48 00:02:17,033 --> 00:02:19,600 ♪ Now you act all sweet and surly ♪ 49 00:02:19,600 --> 00:02:24,833 ♪ But you swore you'd come home early, and you lied ♪ 50 00:02:28,866 --> 00:02:31,800 -You gotta let go, Mom. I'm almost 18. 51 00:02:31,800 --> 00:02:34,133 -Are you snorting coke? 52 00:02:34,133 --> 00:02:36,100 -Not at the moment. -Who's up at this hour? 53 00:02:36,100 --> 00:02:38,433 -Father. Go. Up the back way. -Why does he hate me? 54 00:02:38,433 --> 00:02:41,366 -Because you're a total loser. -You can't call me a loser. 55 00:02:41,366 --> 00:02:43,000 -Is everything okay? I heard voices. 56 00:02:43,000 --> 00:02:44,833 -Just me, talking to myself, you know. 57 00:02:44,833 --> 00:02:46,233 Now you head on upstairs. 58 00:02:46,233 --> 00:02:47,966 I'll be up for sex in a minute. 59 00:02:47,966 --> 00:02:50,400 -You'll... Are you sure everything's okay? 60 00:02:50,400 --> 00:02:53,133 -Uh-huh. Go. 61 00:02:55,466 --> 00:02:59,900 ♪ They're the perfect loving family, so adoring ♪ 62 00:02:59,900 --> 00:03:04,166 ♪ And I love them every day of every week ♪ 63 00:03:04,166 --> 00:03:08,066 ♪ So my son's a little brat, my husband's boring ♪ 64 00:03:08,066 --> 00:03:11,966 ♪ And my daughter, though a genius, is a freak ♪ 65 00:03:11,966 --> 00:03:14,700 ♪ Still, I help them love each other ♪ 66 00:03:14,700 --> 00:03:19,600 ♪ Father, mother, sister, brother, cheek-to-cheek ♪ 67 00:03:19,600 --> 00:03:21,333 Natalie. It's 4:00 in the morning. 68 00:03:21,333 --> 00:03:23,066 -Is everything okay? -Everything's great. 69 00:03:23,066 --> 00:03:24,833 Why wouldn't it be great? It's great. 70 00:03:24,833 --> 00:03:26,300 I've just got three more chapters of calculus, 71 00:03:26,300 --> 00:03:27,833 a physics problem set, a history quiz, 72 00:03:27,833 --> 00:03:29,433 and two more pages on floral imagery in 73 00:03:29,433 --> 00:03:31,633 "Flowers for Algernon," which is just duh. 74 00:03:31,633 --> 00:03:34,266 Everything's so under control. It's just calm. 75 00:03:34,266 --> 00:03:36,700 -Okay, honey, you need to slow down 76 00:03:36,700 --> 00:03:38,566 and take some time for yourself. 77 00:03:38,566 --> 00:03:41,200 I'm going to have sex with your father. 78 00:03:42,266 --> 00:03:45,333 -Great. Thanks. 79 00:03:45,333 --> 00:03:47,866 So glad I know that! 80 00:03:47,866 --> 00:03:52,233 ♪ So, it's times like these I wonder how I take it ♪ 81 00:03:52,233 --> 00:03:56,300 ♪ And if other families live the way we do ♪ 82 00:03:56,300 --> 00:04:00,833 ♪ If they love each other or if they just fake it ♪ 83 00:04:00,833 --> 00:04:04,566 ♪ And if other daughters feel like I feel, too ♪ 84 00:04:04,566 --> 00:04:07,666 ♪ 'Cause some days, I think I'm dying ♪ 85 00:04:07,666 --> 00:04:11,966 ♪ But I'm really only trying to get through ♪ 86 00:04:11,966 --> 00:04:15,233 -♪ For just another day ♪ 87 00:04:15,233 --> 00:04:18,633 ♪ For another stolen hour ♪ 88 00:04:18,633 --> 00:04:23,200 ♪ When the world will feel my power and obey ♪ 89 00:04:23,200 --> 00:04:26,366 -♪ It's just another day ♪ 90 00:04:26,366 --> 00:04:29,366 -♪ Feeling like I'll live forever ♪ 91 00:04:29,366 --> 00:04:34,133 -♪ Feeling like this feeling never goes away ♪ 92 00:04:34,133 --> 00:04:37,300 -♪ For just another day ♪ 93 00:04:37,300 --> 00:04:38,800 -That was great, wasn't it? 94 00:04:38,800 --> 00:04:41,466 That was great. Geez, I'm late. 95 00:04:41,466 --> 00:04:43,666 -Mm! That'll teach you to take a whole 10 minutes. 96 00:04:43,666 --> 00:04:44,933 -I'm sorry, what? 97 00:04:44,933 --> 00:04:47,200 -I said, isn't it a beautiful day? 98 00:04:47,200 --> 00:04:48,900 -Oh, yeah, sure. 99 00:04:48,900 --> 00:04:51,100 It's cloudy and raining and really cold for September, 100 00:04:51,100 --> 00:04:52,666 but beautiful. 101 00:04:52,666 --> 00:04:54,500 -Makes you want to dive in with both feet, doesn't it? 102 00:04:54,500 --> 00:04:57,000 -Absolutely. 103 00:04:57,000 --> 00:04:59,666 I never know what she's talking about. 104 00:04:59,666 --> 00:05:04,133 ♪ When it's up you to hold your house together ♪ 105 00:05:04,133 --> 00:05:07,800 ♪ A house you built with patience and with care ♪ 106 00:05:07,800 --> 00:05:12,366 ♪ But you're grappling with that gray and rainy weather ♪ 107 00:05:12,366 --> 00:05:15,200 ♪ And you're living on a latte and a prayer ♪ 108 00:05:15,200 --> 00:05:16,666 -♪ Prayer ♪ 109 00:05:16,666 --> 00:05:19,366 -♪ Can you keep the cup from tipping? ♪ 110 00:05:19,366 --> 00:05:23,900 ♪ Can you keep your grip from slipping in despair? ♪ 111 00:05:23,900 --> 00:05:27,066 ♪ For just another day ♪ 112 00:05:27,066 --> 00:05:30,400 ♪ In the hustle and the hurry ♪ 113 00:05:30,400 --> 00:05:33,100 -♪ You want to wipe your worry clean away ♪ 114 00:05:33,100 --> 00:05:34,933 -Oh. 115 00:05:34,933 --> 00:05:37,733 -♪ For just another day ♪ 116 00:05:37,733 --> 00:05:41,100 -♪ I will keep the plates all spinning ♪ 117 00:05:41,100 --> 00:05:45,866 -♪ With a smile so white and winning all the way ♪ 118 00:05:45,866 --> 00:05:49,833 -♪ 'Cause what doesn't kill me doesn't kill me ♪ 119 00:05:49,833 --> 00:05:54,933 ♪ So fill me up for just another day ♪ 120 00:05:56,066 --> 00:05:58,766 -♪ It only hurts when I'm here ♪ 121 00:05:58,766 --> 00:06:00,400 -♪ Bum, bum, bum ♪ 122 00:06:00,400 --> 00:06:03,266 -You're gonna be late, and you've got a huge day today. 123 00:06:03,266 --> 00:06:04,800 -You have no idea what I do all day. 124 00:06:04,800 --> 00:06:06,866 -Jazz band before school, class, Key Club, then football. 125 00:06:06,866 --> 00:06:08,300 -Not bad. 126 00:06:08,300 --> 00:06:10,466 -Mm. Now get out of here. -Okay. [ Chuckles ] 127 00:06:13,566 --> 00:06:16,766 -♪ It only hurts when he goes ♪ 128 00:06:16,766 --> 00:06:18,400 -♪ Bum, bum, bum ♪ 129 00:06:18,400 --> 00:06:20,233 -Morning, sunshine. 130 00:06:20,233 --> 00:06:23,033 -So, I got the date for my winter recital, 131 00:06:23,033 --> 00:06:24,166 Do you think you guys can come? 132 00:06:24,166 --> 00:06:26,900 -Uh, yeah! We'll put it on the calendar. 133 00:06:26,900 --> 00:06:29,533 -Mom, the calendar is still on April of last year. 134 00:06:29,533 --> 00:06:32,500 -Mm. Well, happy Easter. 135 00:06:32,500 --> 00:06:33,933 -Happy Easter, Mom. 136 00:06:33,933 --> 00:06:35,566 -Hi, sweetheart. -Hey. 137 00:06:35,566 --> 00:06:38,466 She's on fire this morning. -Oh, I know. 138 00:06:39,233 --> 00:06:41,166 -Ew. 139 00:06:41,766 --> 00:06:43,400 -Honey, can you do the shopping today? 140 00:06:43,400 --> 00:06:45,133 I'm slammed at work, and we're out of everything. 141 00:06:45,133 --> 00:06:48,766 -I keep cave clean. You go out, get fire! 142 00:06:48,766 --> 00:06:51,700 -[ Laughs ] Absolutely. 143 00:06:51,700 --> 00:06:54,166 Again, no clue. 144 00:06:55,633 --> 00:06:57,400 -♪ It only hurts when I breathe ♪ 145 00:06:57,400 --> 00:06:59,700 -♪ It only hurts when I try ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I think ♪ 146 00:06:59,700 --> 00:07:02,500 -♪ It only hurts when I cry ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I work ♪ 147 00:07:02,500 --> 00:07:04,066 -♪ It hurts ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I play ♪ 148 00:07:04,066 --> 00:07:05,700 -♪ It hurts ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I move ♪ 149 00:07:05,700 --> 00:07:08,233 -♪ It hurts when I say ♪ -♪ It only hurts when I say ♪ 150 00:07:08,233 --> 00:07:09,500 -♪ It's just another day ♪ 151 00:07:09,500 --> 00:07:11,500 -♪ A busy, busy day ♪ 152 00:07:11,500 --> 00:07:14,200 -♪ And the morning sun is stunning ♪ 153 00:07:14,200 --> 00:07:17,766 -♪ And you wish that you were running far away ♪ 154 00:07:17,766 --> 00:07:20,200 -♪ I will hide the mess away ♪ -♪ It's just another day ♪ 155 00:07:20,200 --> 00:07:22,366 -♪ And I'll survive another day ♪ 156 00:07:22,366 --> 00:07:24,433 -♪ Birds are singing, things are growing ♪ 157 00:07:24,433 --> 00:07:25,900 -♪ And I will pray ♪ 158 00:07:25,900 --> 00:07:27,433 -♪ And you wish you would be going, but you stay ♪ 159 00:07:27,433 --> 00:07:30,000 -♪ Hold on just this way ♪ 160 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:32,500 -♪ You stay ♪ -♪ For my family's sake ♪ 161 00:07:32,500 --> 00:07:35,133 -♪ Though you know it's now or never ♪ 162 00:07:35,133 --> 00:07:37,000 -♪ I'll take what I can take ♪ 163 00:07:37,000 --> 00:07:39,133 -♪ And you know that for forever ♪ 164 00:07:39,133 --> 00:07:41,266 -♪ Though I'm only just awake ♪ ♪ Every day is just another ♪ 165 00:07:41,266 --> 00:07:43,833 ♪ And another and another ♪ 166 00:07:43,833 --> 00:07:46,566 ♪ I will hold it all together ♪ 167 00:07:46,566 --> 00:07:48,900 ♪ We're the perfect loving family ♪ 168 00:07:48,900 --> 00:07:50,166 -Diana? 169 00:07:50,166 --> 00:07:51,966 -♪ If they say we're not, then screw 'em ♪ 170 00:07:51,966 --> 00:07:54,566 ♪ We're the perfect loving family ♪ 171 00:07:54,566 --> 00:07:55,900 ♪ I will keep the plates all spinning ♪ 172 00:07:55,900 --> 00:07:57,200 -Diana... 173 00:07:57,200 --> 00:07:59,100 -♪ And the world just keeps on spinning ♪ 174 00:07:59,100 --> 00:08:00,533 And I think the house is spinning. 175 00:08:00,533 --> 00:08:02,966 -Hey, Diana, honey? -Dad? 176 00:08:02,966 --> 00:08:04,833 -Don't worry about it. -Go on ahead. 177 00:08:04,833 --> 00:08:06,200 You'll miss your bus. 178 00:08:06,200 --> 00:08:07,500 -Mom? -Everything's fine! 179 00:08:07,500 --> 00:08:09,233 Just making sandwiches. 180 00:08:09,233 --> 00:08:10,833 On the floor. Um... 181 00:08:10,833 --> 00:08:13,000 -You go on ahead. You'll miss your bus. 182 00:08:13,000 --> 00:08:14,866 -Go. 183 00:08:14,866 --> 00:08:16,066 Sweetie, everything okay? -Hmm? 184 00:08:16,066 --> 00:08:17,900 -Yeah. I wanted to get ahead on lunches. 185 00:08:17,900 --> 00:08:20,566 -Yeah, sure. Why don't you let me help you up? 186 00:08:22,933 --> 00:08:25,800 -Well, I guess I got a little carried away. 187 00:08:25,800 --> 00:08:30,033 -Maybe a little. Um, let's go see Dr. Fine. 188 00:08:30,033 --> 00:08:33,466 T-This is just a blip, okay? It's nothing to worry about. 189 00:08:33,466 --> 00:08:37,233 I'll, uh, wrap up the sandwiches, and then we'll go. 190 00:08:37,233 --> 00:08:39,833 [ Bell rings ] 191 00:08:39,833 --> 00:08:56,000 ♪♪ 192 00:08:56,000 --> 00:08:58,433 -♪ Mozart was crazy ♪ 193 00:08:59,766 --> 00:09:02,433 ♪ Flat freaking crazy ♪ 194 00:09:03,100 --> 00:09:05,333 ♪ Nutso, I hear ♪ 195 00:09:06,500 --> 00:09:08,566 ♪ But his music's not crazy ♪ 196 00:09:08,566 --> 00:09:12,100 ♪ It's balanced, it's nimble, it's crystalline-clear ♪ 197 00:09:13,300 --> 00:09:14,733 ♪ There's harmony, logic ♪ 198 00:09:14,733 --> 00:09:17,000 ♪ You listen to these ♪ 199 00:09:17,000 --> 00:09:20,033 ♪ You don't hear his doubts or his debts or disease ♪ 200 00:09:20,033 --> 00:09:23,400 ♪ You scan through the score and put fingers on keys ♪ 201 00:09:23,400 --> 00:09:25,033 ♪ And you play ♪ 202 00:09:25,033 --> 00:09:27,500 ♪♪ 203 00:09:27,500 --> 00:09:31,466 ♪ And everything else goes away ♪ 204 00:09:31,466 --> 00:09:35,200 ♪ Everything else goes away ♪ 205 00:09:35,200 --> 00:09:38,833 ♪ So you play till it's perfect, you play till you ache ♪ 206 00:09:38,833 --> 00:09:42,433 ♪ You play till the strings or your fingernails break ♪ 207 00:09:42,433 --> 00:09:46,133 ♪ So you'll rock that recital and get into Yale ♪ 208 00:09:46,133 --> 00:09:50,000 ♪ So you won't feel so sick and you won't look so pale ♪ 209 00:09:50,000 --> 00:09:51,533 ♪ 'Cause you've got your full ride, 210 00:09:51,533 --> 00:09:53,466 and it means that you're gone ♪ 211 00:09:53,466 --> 00:09:57,033 ♪ So you're done with this school and you get to move on ♪ 212 00:09:57,033 --> 00:10:00,933 ♪ So you graduate early, you're gone as of May ♪ 213 00:10:00,933 --> 00:10:08,033 ♪ And there's nothing your paranoid parents can say ♪ 214 00:10:10,133 --> 00:10:14,333 ♪ And you know that it's just a sonata away ♪ 215 00:10:14,333 --> 00:10:16,066 ♪ And you play ♪ 216 00:10:18,066 --> 00:10:20,633 ♪ And you play ♪ 217 00:10:23,233 --> 00:10:27,566 ♪ And everything else goes away ♪ 218 00:10:27,566 --> 00:10:32,000 ♪ Everything else goes away ♪ 219 00:10:32,000 --> 00:10:33,733 ♪ Everything else goes -- ♪ 220 00:10:33,733 --> 00:10:35,433 -Sounds good. 221 00:10:35,433 --> 00:10:38,266 -Uh, I-I still have this practice room for 222 00:10:38,266 --> 00:10:39,666 seven and a half minutes. 223 00:10:39,666 --> 00:10:43,633 -Yeah. I mean, I know. I just like to listen. 224 00:10:45,300 --> 00:10:46,500 I'm Henry. 225 00:10:46,500 --> 00:10:48,566 -Natalie. -Yeah. 226 00:10:48,566 --> 00:10:50,333 I mean, I know. 227 00:10:51,633 --> 00:10:54,200 -It's a little creepy that you know. 228 00:10:54,200 --> 00:10:57,100 -We've gone to school together for like six years. 229 00:10:57,100 --> 00:10:58,366 -Really? 230 00:10:58,366 --> 00:11:00,866 -I sit behind you in four classes. 231 00:11:01,766 --> 00:11:02,766 -Huh! 232 00:11:02,766 --> 00:11:04,733 Also creepy. 233 00:11:05,633 --> 00:11:07,900 -You're in here a lot. 234 00:11:10,766 --> 00:11:13,866 You know, before school... 235 00:11:13,866 --> 00:11:15,700 and after. 236 00:11:15,700 --> 00:11:17,566 -Right. 237 00:11:17,566 --> 00:11:18,833 Seven minutes. 238 00:11:22,500 --> 00:11:24,566 You give up way too easily. 239 00:11:24,566 --> 00:11:26,266 -[ Laughs nervously ] 240 00:11:26,266 --> 00:11:28,233 You're kind of a confusing person. 241 00:11:29,300 --> 00:11:30,533 -You should meet my mother. 242 00:11:32,533 --> 00:11:34,666 -The pink ones are taken with food, 243 00:11:34,666 --> 00:11:36,633 but not with the white ones. 244 00:11:36,633 --> 00:11:38,533 The white ones are taken with the round yellow ones, 245 00:11:38,533 --> 00:11:40,300 but not with the triangle yellow ones. 246 00:11:40,300 --> 00:11:42,566 The triangle yellow ones are taken with the oblong green ones 247 00:11:42,566 --> 00:11:44,700 with food, but not with the pink ones. 248 00:11:44,700 --> 00:11:47,166 If a train's leaving New York at 120 miles an hour 249 00:11:47,166 --> 00:11:49,566 and the other train is leaving St. Petersburg at the same time 250 00:11:49,566 --> 00:11:51,333 but going backwards, which train do you get on... 251 00:11:51,333 --> 00:11:52,566 -♪ Who's crazy? 252 00:11:52,566 --> 00:11:54,533 ♪ The husband or wife? 253 00:11:54,533 --> 00:11:56,166 ♪ Who's crazy? 254 00:11:56,166 --> 00:11:58,333 ♪ To live their whole life ♪ 255 00:11:58,333 --> 00:12:05,233 ♪ Believing that somehow, things aren't as bizarre as they are? ♪ 256 00:12:05,233 --> 00:12:07,266 ♪ Who's crazy? ♪ 257 00:12:07,266 --> 00:12:09,233 ♪ The one who can't cope ♪ 258 00:12:09,233 --> 00:12:10,666 ♪ Or maybe ♪ 259 00:12:10,666 --> 00:12:13,066 ♪ The one who'll still hope? ♪ 260 00:12:13,066 --> 00:12:15,333 ♪ The one who sees doctors or the one 261 00:12:15,333 --> 00:12:19,666 who just waits in the car? ♪ 262 00:12:19,666 --> 00:12:24,000 ♪ And I was a wild twenty-five ♪ 263 00:12:24,000 --> 00:12:28,533 ♪ And I loved a wife so alive ♪ 264 00:12:28,533 --> 00:12:31,600 ♪ But now I believe I would settle ♪ 265 00:12:31,600 --> 00:12:35,300 ♪ For one who can drive ♪ 266 00:12:35,300 --> 00:12:37,800 -The round blue ones are taken with food, 267 00:12:37,800 --> 00:12:39,866 but not with the oblong white ones. 268 00:12:39,866 --> 00:12:42,000 The white ones are taken with the round yellow ones, 269 00:12:42,000 --> 00:12:44,000 but not with the trapezoidal green ones. 270 00:12:44,000 --> 00:12:45,500 Break the green ones into thirds 271 00:12:45,500 --> 00:12:46,900 with a tiny chisel, put it all into a mortar... 272 00:12:46,900 --> 00:12:51,433 -♪ My psychopharmacologist and I ♪ 273 00:12:51,433 --> 00:12:54,866 ♪ It's like an odd romance ♪ 274 00:12:54,866 --> 00:12:58,166 ♪ Intense and very intimate ♪ 275 00:12:58,166 --> 00:13:02,600 ♪ We do our dance ♪ 276 00:13:02,600 --> 00:13:06,833 ♪ My psychopharmacologist and I ♪ 277 00:13:06,833 --> 00:13:09,900 ♪ Call it a lover's game ♪ 278 00:13:09,900 --> 00:13:13,400 ♪ He knows my deepest secrets ♪ 279 00:13:13,400 --> 00:13:17,933 ♪ I know his name ♪ 280 00:13:17,933 --> 00:13:21,400 ♪ And though he'll never hold me ♪ 281 00:13:21,400 --> 00:13:25,466 ♪ He'll always take my calls ♪ 282 00:13:25,466 --> 00:13:28,833 ♪ It's truly like he told me ♪ 283 00:13:28,833 --> 00:13:33,466 ♪ Without a little lift, the ballerina falls ♪ 284 00:13:33,466 --> 00:13:35,400 -Goodman, Diana. 285 00:13:35,400 --> 00:13:38,000 Bipolar disorder with delusional episodes. 286 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:41,733 16-year history of medication. Adjustment after four weeks. 287 00:13:41,733 --> 00:13:43,033 -I've got less anxiety, 288 00:13:43,033 --> 00:13:45,000 but I have headaches 289 00:13:45,000 --> 00:13:47,300 and blurry vision 290 00:13:47,300 --> 00:13:48,866 and I can't feel my toes. 291 00:13:48,866 --> 00:13:52,566 -So, we'll try again, and eventually, we'll get it right. 292 00:13:52,566 --> 00:13:55,433 -Mm! Not a very exact science, is it? 293 00:13:55,433 --> 00:13:59,966 -♪ Zoloft and Paxil and BuSpar and Xanax ♪ 294 00:13:59,966 --> 00:14:03,833 ♪ Depakote, Klonopin, Ambien, Prozac ♪ 295 00:14:03,833 --> 00:14:07,566 ♪ Ativan calms me when I see the bills ♪ 296 00:14:07,566 --> 00:14:12,633 ♪ These are a few of my favorite pills ♪ 297 00:14:12,633 --> 00:14:14,300 -[ Gasps ] Thank you, Doctor! 298 00:14:14,300 --> 00:14:17,900 Valium is my favorite color. How'd you know? 299 00:14:17,900 --> 00:14:19,700 -It's just t-the thing about jazz is, 300 00:14:19,700 --> 00:14:21,300 how do you ever know if you got it right? 301 00:14:21,300 --> 00:14:22,866 -It's just making stuff up. 302 00:14:22,866 --> 00:14:25,533 -Which is also known as the act of creation. 303 00:14:25,533 --> 00:14:29,133 -Oh. You're one of those pretentious stoner types. 304 00:14:29,133 --> 00:14:32,033 -That's totally not fair. I'm not pretentious. 305 00:14:32,866 --> 00:14:34,433 I'm definitely not classical. 306 00:14:34,433 --> 00:14:36,233 It's far too rigid and structured. 307 00:14:36,233 --> 00:14:37,666 There's no room for improvisation. 308 00:14:37,666 --> 00:14:39,133 You have to play the notes on the page. 309 00:14:39,133 --> 00:14:41,400 -Yeah, and what did Mozart know, anyway? 310 00:14:41,400 --> 00:14:43,300 He should have just smoked a bowl and jammed on 311 00:14:43,300 --> 00:14:45,066 "Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star." 312 00:14:45,066 --> 00:14:48,133 -[ Laughs ] Yeah, let's do that! 313 00:14:48,133 --> 00:14:49,433 -Goodman, Diana. 314 00:14:49,433 --> 00:14:51,300 Second adjustment after eight weeks. 315 00:14:51,300 --> 00:14:54,466 Delusions less frequent, but depressive state worse. 316 00:14:54,466 --> 00:14:57,433 -I'm nauseous and I'm constipated. 317 00:14:57,433 --> 00:15:01,300 Completely lost my appetite and gained 6 pounds. 318 00:15:01,300 --> 00:15:05,033 Which is just, you know, not fair. 319 00:15:06,333 --> 00:15:10,366 -♪ May cause the following side effects, one or more ♪ 320 00:15:10,366 --> 00:15:14,200 ♪ Dizziness, drowsiness, sexual dysfunction ♪ 321 00:15:14,200 --> 00:15:18,400 ♪ Headaches and tremors and nightmares and seizures ♪ 322 00:15:18,400 --> 00:15:20,166 ♪ Anxiousness, anger, exhaustion, insomnia, 323 00:15:20,166 --> 00:15:22,300 irritability, nausea, vomiting ♪ 324 00:15:22,300 --> 00:15:24,333 -♪ Odd and alarming sexual feelings ♪ 325 00:15:24,333 --> 00:15:26,033 -♪ Oh, and one last thing ♪ 326 00:15:26,033 --> 00:15:28,266 -♪ Use may be fatal ♪ -♪ Use may be fatal ♪ 327 00:15:28,266 --> 00:15:31,466 -♪ Use may be fatal ♪ 328 00:15:31,466 --> 00:15:32,866 -Goodman, Diana. 329 00:15:32,866 --> 00:15:34,933 Third adjustment after 12 weeks. 330 00:15:34,933 --> 00:15:38,500 Reports continued, mild anxiety and some lingering depression. 331 00:15:38,500 --> 00:15:40,966 -I now can't feel my fingers or my toes. 332 00:15:40,966 --> 00:15:43,666 I-I sweat profusely for no reason. 333 00:15:43,666 --> 00:15:46,900 -I've wasted like weeks of practice with you, improvising. 334 00:15:46,900 --> 00:15:49,233 -Oscar Peterson was classically trained. 335 00:15:49,233 --> 00:15:50,500 -Beethoven did cocaine. 336 00:15:50,500 --> 00:15:52,466 -Miles Davis went to Juilliard. 337 00:15:52,466 --> 00:15:55,200 -Mozart wrote poems about farts. 338 00:15:56,066 --> 00:16:00,200 -Fortunately, I have absolutely no desire for sex. 339 00:16:00,200 --> 00:16:02,233 Though whether that's the medicine 340 00:16:02,233 --> 00:16:03,566 or the marriage is anybody's guess. 341 00:16:03,566 --> 00:16:06,200 -I'm sure it's the medicine. 342 00:16:06,200 --> 00:16:10,733 -Oh, thank you. That's very sweet. 343 00:16:10,733 --> 00:16:12,033 [ Giggles ] 344 00:16:12,033 --> 00:16:14,600 But my husband is waiting in the car. 345 00:16:15,566 --> 00:16:17,966 -♪ Who's crazy? 346 00:16:17,966 --> 00:16:21,700 ♪ The one who's half-gone, or maybe ♪ 347 00:16:21,700 --> 00:16:23,800 ♪ The one who holds on? ♪ 348 00:16:23,800 --> 00:16:26,333 ♪ Remembering when she was twenty ♪ 349 00:16:26,333 --> 00:16:31,733 ♪ And brilliant and bold ♪ 350 00:16:33,200 --> 00:16:36,366 ♪ And I was so young ♪ 351 00:16:36,366 --> 00:16:38,300 ♪ And so dumb ♪ 352 00:16:39,533 --> 00:16:42,533 ♪ And now I am old ♪ 353 00:16:42,533 --> 00:16:44,400 ♪ And she was wicked and wired ♪ 354 00:16:44,400 --> 00:16:46,466 -♪ And though he'll never hold me ♪ 355 00:16:46,466 --> 00:16:50,733 -♪ The sex was simply inspired ♪ -♪ He'll always take my calls ♪ 356 00:16:50,733 --> 00:16:52,100 -♪ Now there's no sex, she's depressed ♪ 357 00:16:52,100 --> 00:16:53,766 -♪ It's truly like he told me ♪ 358 00:16:53,766 --> 00:16:55,166 -♪ And me, I'm just tired, tired, tired, tired ♪ 359 00:16:55,166 --> 00:16:58,400 -♪ Without a little lift, the ballerina falls ♪ 360 00:16:58,400 --> 00:16:59,533 -♪ Who's crazy? ♪ 361 00:16:59,533 --> 00:17:00,833 -♪ My psychopharmacologist and I ♪ 362 00:17:00,833 --> 00:17:03,433 -♪ The one who's uncured, or maybe ♪ 363 00:17:03,433 --> 00:17:06,733 -♪ Together side by side ♪ -♪ The one who's endured? ♪ 364 00:17:06,733 --> 00:17:08,533 -♪ The one who has treatments ♪ -♪ Without him, I'd die ♪ 365 00:17:08,533 --> 00:17:09,733 -♪ Or the one who just lives with the pain? ♪ 366 00:17:09,733 --> 00:17:14,966 -♪ My psychopharmacologist and I ♪ 367 00:17:14,966 --> 00:17:18,366 -♪ They say love is blind ♪ 368 00:17:18,366 --> 00:17:20,433 ♪ But believe me ♪ 369 00:17:20,433 --> 00:17:22,133 [ Pills rattle, chuckles ] 370 00:17:22,133 --> 00:17:24,433 ♪ Love is insane ♪ 371 00:17:24,433 --> 00:17:28,033 -Goodman, Diana. 16 weeks. 372 00:17:28,033 --> 00:17:31,166 -I don't feel like myself. 373 00:17:31,166 --> 00:17:34,766 I mean, I-I don't feel anything. 374 00:17:34,766 --> 00:17:37,166 -Uh-huh. 375 00:17:37,166 --> 00:17:39,466 Patient stable. 376 00:17:39,466 --> 00:17:42,933 ♪♪ 377 00:17:42,933 --> 00:17:44,933 [ Cheers and applause ] 378 00:17:50,400 --> 00:17:53,300 ♪♪ 379 00:17:53,300 --> 00:17:56,933 -Hey, uh, your mom's, like, in the next room. 380 00:17:56,933 --> 00:18:00,966 -She's in denial. It's totally convenient. 381 00:18:06,733 --> 00:18:08,700 Dude, it's therapeutic. 382 00:18:08,700 --> 00:18:10,000 -Right. 383 00:18:10,000 --> 00:18:13,633 It's medical marijuana to treat your ADHD. 384 00:18:13,633 --> 00:18:15,066 -Totally. [ Chuckles ] 385 00:18:16,633 --> 00:18:18,266 Huh? 386 00:18:20,300 --> 00:18:25,500 -Oh, uh, I don't put anything into my mouth that's on fire. 387 00:18:27,100 --> 00:18:29,566 -I guess that's a good rule. 388 00:18:29,566 --> 00:18:33,666 ♪♪ 389 00:18:33,666 --> 00:18:35,600 -Oh! Uh... -Oh. 390 00:18:35,600 --> 00:18:39,200 -No, I... -[ Sighs ] 391 00:18:39,200 --> 00:18:42,233 I can't do this. 392 00:18:42,233 --> 00:18:43,333 Not with my life. 393 00:18:43,333 --> 00:18:47,133 I-I'm like one screw-up from disaster. 394 00:18:48,833 --> 00:18:51,066 -Your life's not a disaster. 395 00:18:51,066 --> 00:18:53,533 The environment is a disaster. X is a disaster. 396 00:18:53,533 --> 00:18:56,600 -You're stoned. -♪ Our planet is poisoned ♪ 397 00:18:56,600 --> 00:18:58,566 ♪ The oceans, the air ♪ 398 00:18:58,566 --> 00:19:01,833 ♪ Around and beneath and above you ♪ 399 00:19:01,833 --> 00:19:05,633 -♪ Um, Henry, that's true, and I totally care ♪ 400 00:19:05,633 --> 00:19:08,833 -♪ I'm trying to tell you I love you ♪ 401 00:19:08,833 --> 00:19:11,033 -What? -♪ The world is at war, 402 00:19:11,033 --> 00:19:13,466 filled with death and disease ♪ 403 00:19:13,466 --> 00:19:16,733 ♪ We dance on the edge of destruction ♪ 404 00:19:16,733 --> 00:19:21,200 ♪ The globe's getting warmer by deadly degrees ♪ 405 00:19:21,200 --> 00:19:24,500 -♪ And this is one messed-up seduction ♪ 406 00:19:25,533 --> 00:19:31,333 -♪ This planet is pretty much broken beyond all repair ♪ 407 00:19:31,333 --> 00:19:33,766 ♪ But one thing is working ♪ 408 00:19:33,766 --> 00:19:38,800 ♪ If you're standing there ♪ 409 00:19:38,800 --> 00:19:42,333 ♪ Perfect for you ♪ 410 00:19:42,333 --> 00:19:46,066 ♪ I could be perfect for you ♪ 411 00:19:46,066 --> 00:19:53,666 ♪ And I might be lazy, a loner, a bit of a stoner, it's true ♪ 412 00:19:53,666 --> 00:19:57,666 ♪ But I might be perfect ♪ 413 00:19:57,666 --> 00:19:59,966 ♪ I'll make myself perfect ♪ 414 00:19:59,966 --> 00:20:01,600 ♪ Perfect for you ♪ 415 00:20:01,600 --> 00:20:05,333 ♪ You square all the corners, I straighten the curves ♪ 416 00:20:05,333 --> 00:20:09,066 -♪ You've got some nerve, Henry, and I'm just all nerves ♪ 417 00:20:09,066 --> 00:20:13,133 -♪ But even if everything else turns to dirt ♪ 418 00:20:13,133 --> 00:20:18,566 -♪ We'll be the one thing in this world that won't hurt ♪ 419 00:20:21,566 --> 00:20:24,100 -♪ I can't fix what's messed up ♪ 420 00:20:25,466 --> 00:20:31,133 ♪ But one thing I know I can do ♪ 421 00:20:31,133 --> 00:20:35,400 ♪ I can be perfect for you ♪ 422 00:20:35,400 --> 00:20:41,900 -♪ I can be perfect for you ♪ 423 00:20:41,900 --> 00:20:44,933 -♪ Perfect 424 00:20:44,933 --> 00:20:53,333 for you ♪ 425 00:20:53,333 --> 00:21:08,766 ♪♪ 426 00:21:08,766 --> 00:21:11,300 -Nice house. 427 00:21:11,300 --> 00:21:12,566 Can I come in? -Oh, no. 428 00:21:12,566 --> 00:21:14,600 -Oh. 429 00:21:16,766 --> 00:21:19,233 -Are you spying on your own daughter? 430 00:21:19,233 --> 00:21:21,933 -When did she get a boyfriend? -Ew. 431 00:21:24,100 --> 00:21:26,300 -How did I miss this? 432 00:21:26,300 --> 00:21:29,400 -Well, you kinda miss a lot. 433 00:21:29,400 --> 00:21:35,366 ♪♪ 434 00:21:35,366 --> 00:21:38,533 -You think they're in love? -[ Laughs ] 435 00:21:38,533 --> 00:21:40,400 Who knows? 436 00:21:40,400 --> 00:21:43,433 They're young and they're horny. 437 00:21:43,433 --> 00:21:45,966 It happens. 438 00:21:45,966 --> 00:21:48,566 -Marry me. -What? 439 00:21:48,566 --> 00:21:51,333 -Marry me. Let's have a family. 440 00:21:51,333 --> 00:21:54,333 Now, I-I know we're too young, but we're not. 441 00:21:54,333 --> 00:21:55,700 I'm almost 22. 442 00:21:55,700 --> 00:21:59,500 And h-how do you know that this isn't a sign 443 00:21:59,500 --> 00:22:01,466 saying we belong together? 444 00:22:01,466 --> 00:22:05,900 -How do you know it's not a sign saying get new rubbers? 445 00:22:06,800 --> 00:22:08,633 -Because I know it's not. 446 00:22:08,633 --> 00:22:12,233 I love you and this baby. 447 00:22:12,233 --> 00:22:14,300 -[ Laughs ] 448 00:22:14,300 --> 00:22:18,566 Dan, this is crazy. -This is crazy. 449 00:22:18,566 --> 00:22:19,666 -Maybe it is. -Maybe it is. 450 00:22:19,666 --> 00:22:23,133 ♪♪ 451 00:22:23,133 --> 00:22:25,100 -[ Laughs ] 452 00:22:25,100 --> 00:22:33,500 ♪♪ 453 00:22:33,500 --> 00:22:36,233 [ Laughs ] 454 00:22:36,233 --> 00:22:44,366 ♪♪ 455 00:22:44,366 --> 00:22:49,733 -♪ There was a time when I flew higher ♪ 456 00:22:51,833 --> 00:22:58,733 ♪ Was a time the wild girl running free ♪ 457 00:22:58,733 --> 00:23:02,133 ♪ Would be me ♪ 458 00:23:03,900 --> 00:23:09,100 ♪ Now I see her feel the fire ♪ 459 00:23:09,100 --> 00:23:15,666 ♪ Now I know she needs me there to share ♪ 460 00:23:17,433 --> 00:23:20,933 ♪ I'm nowhere ♪ 461 00:23:20,933 --> 00:23:27,333 ♪ All these blank and tranquil years ♪ 462 00:23:27,333 --> 00:23:34,033 ♪ Seems they dried up all my tears ♪ 463 00:23:34,033 --> 00:23:39,366 ♪ And while she runs free and fast ♪ 464 00:23:40,366 --> 00:23:45,366 ♪ Seems my wild days 465 00:23:45,366 --> 00:23:53,466 are past ♪ 466 00:23:55,466 --> 00:24:04,733 ♪ But I miss the mountains ♪ 467 00:24:04,733 --> 00:24:09,066 ♪ I miss the dizzy heights ♪ 468 00:24:10,033 --> 00:24:13,800 ♪ All the manic, magic days ♪ 469 00:24:13,800 --> 00:24:17,766 ♪ And the dark, depressing nights ♪ 470 00:24:19,666 --> 00:24:25,466 ♪ I miss the mountains ♪ 471 00:24:25,466 --> 00:24:30,133 ♪ I miss the highs and lows ♪ 472 00:24:30,133 --> 00:24:34,100 ♪ All the climbing, all the falling ♪ 473 00:24:34,100 --> 00:24:37,766 ♪ All the while, the wild wind blows ♪ 474 00:24:37,766 --> 00:24:40,400 ♪ Stinging you with snow ♪ 475 00:24:40,400 --> 00:24:45,700 ♪ And soaking you with rain ♪ 476 00:24:45,700 --> 00:24:50,400 ♪ I miss the mountains ♪ 477 00:24:50,400 --> 00:24:53,033 ♪ I miss the pain ♪ 478 00:24:57,233 --> 00:25:00,466 ♪ Mountains make you crazy ♪ 479 00:25:00,466 --> 00:25:03,033 ♪ Here, it's safe and sound ♪ 480 00:25:03,033 --> 00:25:05,566 ♪ My mind is somewhere hazy ♪ 481 00:25:05,566 --> 00:25:09,200 ♪ My feet are on the ground ♪ 482 00:25:09,200 --> 00:25:15,233 ♪ Everything is balanced here and on an even keel ♪ 483 00:25:15,233 --> 00:25:19,500 ♪ Everything is perfect ♪ 484 00:25:22,100 --> 00:25:34,166 ♪ Nothing's real ♪ 485 00:25:34,166 --> 00:25:40,800 ♪ And I miss the mountains ♪ 486 00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:45,800 ♪ I miss the lonely climb ♪ 487 00:25:45,800 --> 00:25:49,766 ♪ Wandering through the wilderness ♪ 488 00:25:49,766 --> 00:25:52,800 ♪ And spending all my time ♪ 489 00:25:52,800 --> 00:26:00,333 ♪ Where the air is clear and cuts you like a knife ♪ 490 00:26:00,333 --> 00:26:05,400 ♪ I miss the mountains ♪ 491 00:26:05,733 --> 00:26:11,633 ♪ I miss the mountains ♪ 492 00:26:14,333 --> 00:26:18,633 ♪ I miss my 493 00:26:18,633 --> 00:26:24,766 life ♪ 494 00:26:24,766 --> 00:26:29,000 ♪ I miss my 495 00:26:29,000 --> 00:26:37,366 life ♪ 496 00:26:37,366 --> 00:26:39,366 [ Cheers and applause ] 497 00:26:59,433 --> 00:27:01,866 -Are you sure about this, Mom? 498 00:27:03,200 --> 00:27:05,366 -What? You think it's a bad idea? 499 00:27:07,100 --> 00:27:08,833 -Um... 500 00:27:10,700 --> 00:27:12,933 I think it's a great idea. 501 00:27:14,233 --> 00:27:16,133 Yeah. I think you're brave. 502 00:27:19,266 --> 00:27:22,500 -What will your father think? 503 00:27:22,500 --> 00:27:25,266 -Nothing. 504 00:27:25,266 --> 00:27:27,666 If he doesn't know. 505 00:27:35,766 --> 00:27:38,633 ♪♪ 506 00:27:38,633 --> 00:27:44,433 -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -♪ Good, good, good ♪ 507 00:27:44,433 --> 00:27:46,533 -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ 508 00:27:46,533 --> 00:27:48,466 -♪ G-O-O-D, good ♪ 509 00:27:48,466 --> 00:27:50,033 -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -♪ Uh-huh ♪ 510 00:27:50,033 --> 00:27:51,333 -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -♪ Mm-hmm ♪ 511 00:27:51,333 --> 00:27:52,500 -♪ Two weeks, and it's all working 512 00:27:52,500 --> 00:27:54,433 just the way I knew it would ♪ 513 00:27:54,433 --> 00:27:57,200 ♪ And I don't sit at work just waiting for the phone to ring ♪ 514 00:27:57,200 --> 00:27:58,500 -♪ A-ling ♪ 515 00:27:58,500 --> 00:28:00,366 -♪ It's a good, good, good, good thing ♪ 516 00:28:00,366 --> 00:28:01,400 -♪ Ring ♪ 517 00:28:01,400 --> 00:28:03,133 -♪ A-ling ♪ 518 00:28:03,133 --> 00:28:05,500 -♪ Ring ♪ -♪ A-ling ♪ 519 00:28:05,500 --> 00:28:06,766 -Hello? 520 00:28:06,766 --> 00:28:08,466 Oh, hi, sweetie! -♪ Uh-huh ♪ 521 00:28:08,466 --> 00:28:09,666 -Yeah, everything's great, fantastic. 522 00:28:09,666 --> 00:28:11,033 I disinfected the entire house, 523 00:28:11,033 --> 00:28:12,966 rewired the computer, and did some decoupage. 524 00:28:12,966 --> 00:28:14,866 Okay, bye-bye. -♪ Uh-huh ♪ 525 00:28:14,866 --> 00:28:18,300 -Oh, next, I think I'll retile the roof. 526 00:28:19,633 --> 00:28:21,766 -♪ It's gonna be great ♪ -♪ It's gonna be great ♪ 527 00:28:21,766 --> 00:28:23,766 -♪ Will be great ♪ -♪ The sex is still amazing, 528 00:28:23,766 --> 00:28:25,600 and we don't stay up that late ♪ 529 00:28:25,600 --> 00:28:27,433 ♪ It's almost been a month, and she's as happy as a clam ♪ 530 00:28:27,433 --> 00:28:29,400 -♪ Happy as a clam ♪ 531 00:28:29,400 --> 00:28:31,666 -♪ Do I look great, I am ♪ 532 00:28:31,666 --> 00:28:34,300 -Look, I'd ask you in, but it's too soon. 533 00:28:34,300 --> 00:28:36,566 -We've been going out for nine weeks and three days. 534 00:28:36,566 --> 00:28:38,300 Don't I get to meet your family? 535 00:28:38,300 --> 00:28:40,666 -Oh, you keep count? 536 00:28:40,666 --> 00:28:43,233 You're so the girl. And no. 537 00:28:43,233 --> 00:28:45,900 -Natalie! And this must be Harry! 538 00:28:45,900 --> 00:28:47,066 -It's Henry. 539 00:28:47,066 --> 00:28:49,033 -Pleasure to finally meet you. Come on in. 540 00:28:49,033 --> 00:28:50,233 Why don't you join us for dinner? 541 00:28:50,233 --> 00:28:54,533 -Uh, Dad, no! Henry really can't stay. 542 00:28:54,533 --> 00:28:56,466 He's got, uh... 543 00:28:56,466 --> 00:28:58,566 -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -Homework. 544 00:28:58,566 --> 00:29:00,233 -♪ It's gonna be good ♪ -Surgery. 545 00:29:00,233 --> 00:29:02,166 -♪ Gonna sit right down together like a happy family should ♪ 546 00:29:02,166 --> 00:29:03,400 -Rabies. 547 00:29:03,400 --> 00:29:04,833 -♪ And eat and talk and laugh and joke, 548 00:29:04,833 --> 00:29:06,633 my pride, my brood, and me ♪ 549 00:29:06,633 --> 00:29:08,766 ♪ It's gonna be good, you'll see ♪ 550 00:29:08,766 --> 00:29:10,133 ♪ We'll smile and chat, and just like that, 551 00:29:10,133 --> 00:29:11,500 we'll all be all okay ♪ 552 00:29:11,500 --> 00:29:13,400 ♪ It's gonna be great, it's gonna be great ♪ 553 00:29:13,400 --> 00:29:16,600 ♪ It's gonna be, gonna be, gonna be great that way ♪ 554 00:29:16,600 --> 00:29:18,133 ♪ Hey ♪ 555 00:29:18,133 --> 00:29:21,700 ♪ It's gonna be good, it's gonna be great ♪ 556 00:29:21,700 --> 00:29:24,900 ♪ Gonna sit right down together like a happy family should ♪ 557 00:29:24,900 --> 00:29:28,366 ♪ And eat and talk and laugh and joke, my family and me ♪ 558 00:29:28,366 --> 00:29:30,500 ♪ It's gonna be good, gonna be good ♪ 559 00:29:30,500 --> 00:29:32,466 ♪ Gonna be, gonna be, gonna be, gonna be, gonna be ♪ 560 00:29:32,466 --> 00:29:33,933 ♪ Good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good, good, 561 00:29:33,933 --> 00:29:35,300 good, good, good ♪ 562 00:29:35,300 --> 00:29:36,966 ♪ It's gonna be good, it's gonna be good ♪ 563 00:29:36,966 --> 00:29:38,366 -♪ It's gonna be good, you'll see ♪ 564 00:29:38,366 --> 00:29:41,433 -Okay! It's somebody's birthday! 565 00:29:41,433 --> 00:29:44,533 -[ Laughs ] Whose birthday is it? 566 00:29:47,733 --> 00:29:50,566 -My brother's. -Oh. 567 00:29:50,566 --> 00:29:52,933 I didn't know you had a brother. 568 00:29:54,600 --> 00:29:56,200 -I don't. 569 00:29:56,200 --> 00:29:58,233 ♪♪ 570 00:29:58,233 --> 00:30:00,900 He died before I was born. 571 00:30:03,566 --> 00:30:06,200 -What? 572 00:30:06,200 --> 00:30:07,866 What is it? 573 00:30:10,066 --> 00:30:12,666 -♪ He's not here ♪ 574 00:30:14,133 --> 00:30:16,333 ♪ He's not here ♪ 575 00:30:17,300 --> 00:30:22,566 ♪ Love, I know you know ♪ 576 00:30:22,566 --> 00:30:24,966 -[ Laughs ] 577 00:30:24,966 --> 00:30:27,900 -♪ Do you feel ♪ 578 00:30:27,900 --> 00:30:30,400 ♪ He's still real? ♪ 579 00:30:31,433 --> 00:30:34,500 ♪ Love, it's just not so ♪ 580 00:30:34,500 --> 00:30:38,266 -Just stop. 581 00:30:38,266 --> 00:30:42,866 -♪ Why is it you still believe? ♪ 582 00:30:43,900 --> 00:30:50,800 ♪ Do you dream or do you grieve? ♪ 583 00:30:50,800 --> 00:30:55,933 ♪ You've got to let him go ♪ 584 00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:05,533 ♪ He's been dead all these years ♪ 585 00:31:05,533 --> 00:31:08,333 ♪ No, my love ♪ 586 00:31:10,433 --> 00:31:13,833 ♪ He's not here ♪ 587 00:31:13,833 --> 00:31:16,300 -This is bull. -Language. 588 00:31:16,300 --> 00:31:18,233 -No, screw this. 589 00:31:21,033 --> 00:31:23,000 -It was wonderful to meet you both. 590 00:31:25,733 --> 00:31:27,333 Thank you. 591 00:31:27,333 --> 00:31:36,100 ♪♪ 592 00:31:36,100 --> 00:31:39,566 -What about the new meds? 593 00:31:42,266 --> 00:31:44,900 -We have the happiest septic tank on the block. 594 00:31:44,900 --> 00:31:46,600 -You... 595 00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:48,333 -Come on, Di. They were working. 596 00:31:48,333 --> 00:31:49,966 -They weren't, really. 597 00:31:49,966 --> 00:31:53,833 -[ Sighs ] Alright, um, we'll get a new round. 598 00:31:53,833 --> 00:31:55,833 We'll go back to Dr. Fine. -No! 599 00:31:55,833 --> 00:31:57,666 -Diana, look, I know this is hard. 600 00:31:59,100 --> 00:32:01,000 -Oh, you know? 601 00:32:01,000 --> 00:32:03,766 Really? What exactly do you know? 602 00:32:03,766 --> 00:32:07,133 -I know that you're hurting, alright? I am, too. 603 00:32:07,133 --> 00:32:11,866 -♪ Do you wake up in the morning and need help to lift your head? 604 00:32:11,866 --> 00:32:16,333 ♪ Do you read obituaries and feel jealous of the dead? 605 00:32:16,333 --> 00:32:18,933 ♪ It's like living on a cliffside, 606 00:32:18,933 --> 00:32:21,000 not knowing when you'll dive ♪ 607 00:32:21,000 --> 00:32:25,900 ♪ Do you know, do you know what it's like to die alive? ♪ 608 00:32:25,900 --> 00:32:28,700 ♪ When a world that once had color fades to 609 00:32:28,700 --> 00:32:30,566 white and gray and black ♪ 610 00:32:30,566 --> 00:32:33,033 ♪ When tomorrow terrifies you, 611 00:32:33,033 --> 00:32:34,833 but you'll die if you look back ♪ 612 00:32:34,833 --> 00:32:37,400 ♪ You don't know ♪ 613 00:32:37,400 --> 00:32:39,633 ♪ I know you don't know ♪ 614 00:32:39,633 --> 00:32:42,000 ♪ You say that you're hurting ♪ 615 00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:44,400 ♪ It sure doesn't show ♪ 616 00:32:44,400 --> 00:32:46,900 ♪ You don't know ♪ 617 00:32:46,900 --> 00:32:49,566 ♪ It lays me so low ♪ 618 00:32:49,566 --> 00:32:51,566 ♪ When you say, "Let go" ♪ 619 00:32:51,566 --> 00:32:58,333 ♪ And I say, "You don't know" ♪ 620 00:32:58,333 --> 00:33:00,966 ♪ The sensation that you're screaming, 621 00:33:00,966 --> 00:33:03,533 but you never make a sound ♪ 622 00:33:03,533 --> 00:33:05,666 ♪ Or the feeling that you're falling, 623 00:33:05,666 --> 00:33:07,966 but you never hit the ground ♪ 624 00:33:07,966 --> 00:33:10,466 ♪ It just keeps on rushing at you 625 00:33:10,466 --> 00:33:12,566 day by day by day by day ♪ 626 00:33:12,566 --> 00:33:14,400 ♪ You don't know, 627 00:33:14,400 --> 00:33:17,600 you don't know what it's like to live that way ♪ 628 00:33:17,600 --> 00:33:22,100 ♪ Like a refugee, a fugitive forever on the run ♪ 629 00:33:22,100 --> 00:33:24,900 ♪ If it gets me, it will kill me, 630 00:33:24,900 --> 00:33:27,466 but I don't know what I've done ♪ 631 00:33:27,466 --> 00:33:29,700 -♪ Can you tell me ♪ 632 00:33:31,133 --> 00:33:33,633 ♪ What it is you're afraid of? ♪ 633 00:33:33,633 --> 00:33:36,233 -Oh, I... 634 00:33:36,233 --> 00:33:41,100 -♪ And can you tell me why I'm afraid it's me? 635 00:33:42,633 --> 00:33:44,766 ♪ Can I touch you? ♪ 636 00:33:46,400 --> 00:33:49,800 ♪ We've been fine for so long now ♪ 637 00:33:51,533 --> 00:33:56,400 ♪ How could something go wrong that I can't see? ♪ 638 00:33:56,400 --> 00:33:59,566 ♪ 'Cause I'm holding on ♪ 639 00:34:01,766 --> 00:34:05,366 ♪ And I won't let go ♪ 640 00:34:05,366 --> 00:34:08,733 ♪ I just thought you should know ♪ 641 00:34:08,733 --> 00:34:11,200 ♪ I am the one who knows you ♪ 642 00:34:11,200 --> 00:34:13,533 ♪ I am the one who cares ♪ 643 00:34:13,533 --> 00:34:17,866 ♪ I am the one who's always been there ♪ 644 00:34:19,266 --> 00:34:21,533 ♪ I am the one who's helped you ♪ 645 00:34:21,533 --> 00:34:26,133 ♪ And if you think that I just don't give a damn ♪ 646 00:34:26,133 --> 00:34:29,866 ♪ Then you just don't know who I am ♪ 647 00:34:33,700 --> 00:34:37,533 ♪ Could you leave me? -♪ Hey, Dad, it's me ♪ 648 00:34:37,533 --> 00:34:39,766 -♪ Could you let me go under? 649 00:34:39,766 --> 00:34:42,666 -♪ Why can't you see? 650 00:34:42,666 --> 00:34:44,800 -♪ Will you watch as I drown ♪ 651 00:34:44,800 --> 00:34:48,600 ♪ And wonder why? ♪ -♪ I wonder why ♪ 652 00:34:48,600 --> 00:34:49,700 -♪ Are you bleeding? ♪ 653 00:34:49,700 --> 00:34:51,100 -♪ Are you waiting, are you wishing, 654 00:34:51,100 --> 00:34:52,666 are you wanting all that she can't give? ♪ 655 00:34:52,666 --> 00:34:55,033 -♪ Are you bruised, are you broken? ♪ 656 00:34:55,033 --> 00:34:56,700 -♪ Are you hurting, are you healing, 657 00:34:56,700 --> 00:34:58,600 are you hoping for a life to live? ♪ 658 00:34:58,600 --> 00:35:00,100 -♪ Does it help you to know ♪ 659 00:35:00,100 --> 00:35:03,233 ♪ That so am I? ♪ -♪ Well, so am I ♪ 660 00:35:03,233 --> 00:35:05,866 -♪ Tell me what to do ♪ 661 00:35:05,866 --> 00:35:08,233 -♪ Look at me ♪ 662 00:35:08,233 --> 00:35:10,566 -♪ Tell me who to be ♪ 663 00:35:10,566 --> 00:35:11,800 -♪ Look at me, and you'll see ♪ 664 00:35:11,800 --> 00:35:15,100 -♪ So I can see what you see ♪ 665 00:35:15,100 --> 00:35:16,500 -♪ I am the one who'll hold you ♪ 666 00:35:16,500 --> 00:35:18,000 -♪ I am ♪ 667 00:35:18,000 --> 00:35:19,900 -♪ I am the one who'll stay ♪ -♪ I am ♪ 668 00:35:19,900 --> 00:35:20,966 -♪ I am the one who won't walk away ♪ 669 00:35:20,966 --> 00:35:24,000 -♪ I won't walk away ♪ 670 00:35:24,000 --> 00:35:25,500 -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 671 00:35:25,500 --> 00:35:28,000 ♪ I am the one who'll hear you ♪ -♪ I am ♪ 672 00:35:28,000 --> 00:35:31,133 -♪ And now you tell me that I won't give a damn ♪ 673 00:35:31,133 --> 00:35:32,966 -♪ You don't give a damn ♪ 674 00:35:32,966 --> 00:35:34,500 -♪ But I know you know who I am ♪ 675 00:35:34,500 --> 00:35:36,266 -♪ Who I am ♪ 676 00:35:36,266 --> 00:35:39,200 -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 677 00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:40,933 -♪ That's who I am ♪ 678 00:35:40,933 --> 00:35:43,900 -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 679 00:35:43,900 --> 00:35:46,300 -♪ That's who I am ♪ -♪ Who I am ♪ 680 00:35:46,300 --> 00:35:49,633 -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 681 00:35:49,633 --> 00:35:52,566 -♪ That's who I am ♪ 682 00:35:54,233 --> 00:35:57,133 ♪ 'Cause I'm holding on ♪ 683 00:35:57,133 --> 00:36:00,133 -♪ You say you hurt like me ♪ 684 00:36:00,133 --> 00:36:02,733 -♪ And I won't let go ♪ 685 00:36:02,733 --> 00:36:04,366 -♪ You say that you know ♪ 686 00:36:04,366 --> 00:36:07,366 -♪ Yeah, I thought you should know ♪ 687 00:36:07,366 --> 00:36:09,900 -♪ Oh, you don't know ♪ 688 00:36:09,900 --> 00:36:12,133 -♪ I am the one who knows you ♪ 689 00:36:12,133 --> 00:36:14,800 -♪ I know you don't know ♪ -♪ I am the one who cares ♪ 690 00:36:14,800 --> 00:36:16,100 -♪ You say that you're hurting ♪ 691 00:36:16,100 --> 00:36:17,100 -♪ I am the one who's always been there ♪ 692 00:36:17,100 --> 00:36:19,333 -♪ I know it ain't so ♪ 693 00:36:19,333 --> 00:36:20,633 ♪ You don't know ♪ -♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 694 00:36:20,633 --> 00:36:22,366 ♪ I am the one who needs you ♪ 695 00:36:22,366 --> 00:36:24,800 -♪ Why don't you just go? ♪ -♪ And if you think that I ♪ 696 00:36:24,800 --> 00:36:27,266 -♪ 'Cause it lays me low ♪ -♪ Just don't give a damn ♪ 697 00:36:27,266 --> 00:36:28,566 -♪ When I say ♪ 698 00:36:28,566 --> 00:36:31,166 -♪ Then you just don't know who I am ♪ 699 00:36:31,166 --> 00:36:32,666 -♪ You don't know ♪ 700 00:36:32,666 --> 00:36:34,333 -♪ Who I am ♪ 701 00:36:34,333 --> 00:36:36,133 -♪ You don't know ♪ 702 00:36:36,133 --> 00:36:38,033 -♪ Who I am ♪ 703 00:36:38,033 --> 00:36:45,800 -♪ You just don't know who I am ♪ 704 00:36:45,800 --> 00:36:47,800 [ Cheers and applause ] 705 00:36:56,600 --> 00:36:59,433 ♪♪ 706 00:36:59,433 --> 00:37:02,700 -When she gets like this, she's useless. 707 00:37:02,700 --> 00:37:07,133 Can't use the phone, can't drive, can't... 708 00:37:07,133 --> 00:37:09,966 -Well, I bet she's got great pills. 709 00:37:12,466 --> 00:37:15,433 I mean, not that I would go there. 710 00:37:15,433 --> 00:37:17,733 That stuff's inorganic. 711 00:37:17,733 --> 00:37:19,800 -And totally ineffective, apparently. 712 00:37:19,800 --> 00:37:23,300 -You know me. I'm old school. 713 00:37:23,300 --> 00:37:25,533 A dying breed. 714 00:37:25,533 --> 00:37:27,933 You see, all the preppies and the jocks, 715 00:37:27,933 --> 00:37:30,333 they're raiding their parents' medicine cabinets. 716 00:37:30,333 --> 00:37:33,666 They're popping Xanax and snorting Adderall. 717 00:37:33,666 --> 00:37:35,300 -Really? 718 00:37:35,300 --> 00:37:38,066 -But me, I'm the master of the lost art 719 00:37:38,066 --> 00:37:41,100 of making a pipe out of an apple. 720 00:37:42,433 --> 00:37:46,233 -Yeah. You're the MacGyver of pot. 721 00:37:48,400 --> 00:37:52,000 You promise this'll help? -No. What? 722 00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:56,033 -♪ Superboy and the invisible girl ♪ 723 00:37:56,033 --> 00:37:59,766 ♪ Son of steel and daughter of air ♪ 724 00:37:59,766 --> 00:38:03,100 ♪ He's a hero, a lover, a prince ♪ 725 00:38:03,100 --> 00:38:07,133 ♪ She's not there ♪ 726 00:38:07,133 --> 00:38:10,500 ♪ Superboy and the invisible girl ♪ 727 00:38:10,500 --> 00:38:14,566 ♪ Everything a kid oughta be ♪ 728 00:38:14,566 --> 00:38:17,500 ♪ He's immortal, forever alive ♪ 729 00:38:17,500 --> 00:38:20,800 ♪ Then there's me ♪ 730 00:38:20,800 --> 00:38:25,166 ♪ I wish I could fly ♪ 731 00:38:25,166 --> 00:38:29,433 ♪ And magically appear and disappear ♪ 732 00:38:29,433 --> 00:38:33,300 ♪ I wish I could fly ♪ 733 00:38:33,300 --> 00:38:39,333 ♪ I'd fly far away from here ♪ 734 00:38:39,333 --> 00:38:42,600 ♪ Superboy and the invisible girl ♪ 735 00:38:42,600 --> 00:38:46,733 ♪ He's the one you wish would appear ♪ 736 00:38:46,733 --> 00:38:49,833 ♪ He's your hero, forever your son ♪ 737 00:38:49,833 --> 00:38:51,266 ♪ He's not here ♪ 738 00:38:51,266 --> 00:38:54,166 ♪ I am here ♪ 739 00:38:54,166 --> 00:38:57,333 -♪ You know that's not true ♪ 740 00:38:57,333 --> 00:39:01,700 ♪ You're our little pride and joy, our perfect plan ♪ 741 00:39:01,700 --> 00:39:04,966 ♪ You know I love you ♪ 742 00:39:06,266 --> 00:39:10,033 I love you as much as I can. 743 00:39:14,733 --> 00:39:18,266 -♪ Take a look at the invisible girl ♪ 744 00:39:18,266 --> 00:39:21,633 ♪ Here she is, clear as the day ♪ 745 00:39:21,633 --> 00:39:23,633 ♪ Please look closely and find her 746 00:39:23,633 --> 00:39:29,333 before she fades away ♪ 747 00:39:29,333 --> 00:39:32,733 -♪ Superboy and the invisible girl ♪ 748 00:39:32,733 --> 00:39:36,700 ♪ Son of steel and daughter of air ♪ 749 00:39:36,700 --> 00:39:39,333 ♪ He's a hero, a lover, a prince ♪ 750 00:39:39,333 --> 00:39:45,500 ♪ She's not there ♪ 751 00:39:45,700 --> 00:39:58,700 ♪ She's not there ♪ 752 00:39:58,700 --> 00:40:01,100 [ Cheers and applause ] 753 00:40:01,100 --> 00:40:03,100 -[ Coughs ] 754 00:40:09,533 --> 00:40:11,900 -Let's not get discouraged. 755 00:40:11,900 --> 00:40:15,000 Alright? We'll find a doctor who can 756 00:40:15,000 --> 00:40:16,966 treat you without the drugs. 757 00:40:16,966 --> 00:40:19,600 Alright? There is someone out there for you. 758 00:40:19,600 --> 00:40:22,566 In the depression forums, they say it's like dating. 759 00:40:22,566 --> 00:40:26,066 You know, you have to keep going until you find the right match. 760 00:40:26,066 --> 00:40:28,900 -They have depression forums? -Yeah. 761 00:40:28,900 --> 00:40:32,266 And, uh this doctor is supposed to be fantastic, 762 00:40:32,266 --> 00:40:33,833 like a real rock star. 763 00:40:33,833 --> 00:40:35,866 Three different women at work gave me his name. 764 00:40:35,866 --> 00:40:38,000 -Three women at work know I'm nuts? 765 00:40:38,900 --> 00:40:40,800 -[ Clears throat ] -Ah! 766 00:40:42,133 --> 00:40:44,466 -Diana. This way, please. 767 00:40:44,466 --> 00:40:46,166 ♪♪ 768 00:40:46,166 --> 00:40:51,033 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 769 00:40:54,633 --> 00:40:56,200 -What did you just say? 770 00:40:56,200 --> 00:40:59,466 -I said "Welcome." I'm Dr. Madden. Have a seat. 771 00:40:59,466 --> 00:41:01,700 It's -- It's nice to meet you. 772 00:41:01,700 --> 00:41:07,700 ♪ Let's get it on now, baby ♪ 773 00:41:09,533 --> 00:41:11,833 -Excuse me, what? -I said, let's get started. 774 00:41:11,833 --> 00:41:15,066 Are you nervous, Diana? -I am, a little. 775 00:41:15,066 --> 00:41:17,433 Um, a bit out of breath. 776 00:41:17,433 --> 00:41:21,533 Tingly, actually. Uh, now you go. 777 00:41:21,533 --> 00:41:23,633 -Uh, let's start by getting to know each other a bit. 778 00:41:23,633 --> 00:41:26,033 Psychotherapy and medication work best in tandem, 779 00:41:26,033 --> 00:41:29,333 but we can try the first alone and see how far we get. 780 00:41:29,333 --> 00:41:30,400 Why don't you tell me. 781 00:41:30,400 --> 00:41:34,033 ♪ Baby, what's your history? ♪ 782 00:41:34,033 --> 00:41:39,933 ♪ Where'd you go, and who'd you see, yeah ♪ 783 00:41:39,933 --> 00:41:43,100 -Um, my history? -Mm. 784 00:41:43,100 --> 00:41:49,066 -Okay, uh, I was diagnosed bipolar, wow, 16 years ago, uh, 785 00:41:49,066 --> 00:41:50,933 but it turned out bipolar didn't totally cover it. 786 00:41:50,933 --> 00:41:52,100 -Often, the best we can do 787 00:41:52,100 --> 00:41:54,166 is put names to collections of symptoms. 788 00:41:54,166 --> 00:41:56,033 It's possible bipolar has more in common 789 00:41:56,033 --> 00:41:58,000 with schizophrenia than depression. 790 00:41:58,000 --> 00:41:59,366 -Yeah, when I was young, my mother called me 791 00:41:59,366 --> 00:42:00,933 "high-spirited." 792 00:42:00,933 --> 00:42:02,933 She would know. 793 00:42:02,933 --> 00:42:04,766 She was so high-spirited, they banned her from the PTA. 794 00:42:04,766 --> 00:42:07,000 -Sometimes, we have a predisposition to illness, 795 00:42:07,000 --> 00:42:08,866 but actual onset is often triggered 796 00:42:08,866 --> 00:42:10,433 by some traumatic event. 797 00:42:11,566 --> 00:42:13,466 -Look, I never know what to say when I have to go over all this. 798 00:42:13,466 --> 00:42:15,200 It starts to sounds like some story 799 00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:17,200 I tell about some other person entirely. 800 00:42:17,200 --> 00:42:22,900 -Why don't you tell me about the last time you truly felt happy. 801 00:42:24,366 --> 00:42:26,966 Uh, were you happy when you got married? 802 00:42:26,966 --> 00:42:28,700 -Yeah, I thought I was. 803 00:42:28,700 --> 00:42:30,366 -There's a difference between being happy 804 00:42:30,366 --> 00:42:31,933 and just thinking that you're happy? 805 00:42:31,933 --> 00:42:33,700 -Most people who think they're happy 806 00:42:33,700 --> 00:42:36,266 just haven't thought about it enough. 807 00:42:36,266 --> 00:42:38,300 Most people who think they're happy are actually just stupid. 808 00:42:38,300 --> 00:42:40,200 -Ah. I see. 809 00:42:40,200 --> 00:42:43,566 Uh, were you happy when your son was born? 810 00:42:45,033 --> 00:42:47,100 ♪♪ 811 00:42:47,100 --> 00:42:48,333 -My son. 812 00:42:48,333 --> 00:42:50,366 -Tell me about him. 813 00:42:52,533 --> 00:42:54,300 -About my son? 814 00:42:54,300 --> 00:42:56,166 -Why is he still around? 815 00:42:56,166 --> 00:42:58,033 -Who is he? 816 00:42:58,033 --> 00:43:00,066 What is he? 817 00:43:00,066 --> 00:43:02,333 -♪ I am what you want me to be ♪ 818 00:43:02,333 --> 00:43:05,400 ♪ And I'm your worst fear, you'll find it in me ♪ 819 00:43:05,400 --> 00:43:07,400 ♪ Come closer ♪ 820 00:43:08,300 --> 00:43:09,900 ♪ Come closer ♪ 821 00:43:09,900 --> 00:43:11,733 -Where does he come from, do you think? 822 00:43:11,733 --> 00:43:14,333 -♪ I am more than memory ♪ 823 00:43:14,333 --> 00:43:17,133 ♪ I am what might be, I am mystery ♪ 824 00:43:17,133 --> 00:43:19,666 ♪ You know me ♪ 825 00:43:19,666 --> 00:43:22,766 ♪ So show me ♪ 826 00:43:22,766 --> 00:43:28,733 ♪ When I appear, it's not so clear ♪ 827 00:43:28,733 --> 00:43:34,766 ♪ If I'm a simple spirit or I'm flesh and blood ♪ 828 00:43:34,766 --> 00:43:38,033 ♪ But I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive ♪ 829 00:43:38,033 --> 00:43:40,933 ♪ And I feed on the fear that's behind your eyes ♪ 830 00:43:40,933 --> 00:43:44,066 ♪ And I need you to need me, it's no surprise ♪ 831 00:43:44,066 --> 00:43:46,500 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 832 00:43:46,500 --> 00:43:49,933 ♪ I'm so alive ♪ 833 00:43:49,933 --> 00:43:51,766 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 834 00:43:51,766 --> 00:43:54,666 -Four times a week? That's a lot, isn't it? 835 00:43:54,666 --> 00:43:57,066 -Um, it's what the doctor recommended. 836 00:43:57,066 --> 00:44:00,300 -This is never going to get better, is it? 837 00:44:00,300 --> 00:44:01,966 He's never going away. 838 00:44:01,966 --> 00:44:04,400 -I don't know, Natalie. 839 00:44:04,400 --> 00:44:05,866 -You know, this is one of those moments 840 00:44:05,866 --> 00:44:07,600 where you could just be a typical parent and lie. 841 00:44:07,600 --> 00:44:10,233 Say "yes." -Yes. 842 00:44:10,233 --> 00:44:11,933 -Ah, thanks. 843 00:44:11,933 --> 00:44:13,900 That's comforting. 844 00:44:13,900 --> 00:44:16,633 -♪ I am flame and I am fire ♪ 845 00:44:16,633 --> 00:44:19,766 ♪ I am destruction, decay, and desire ♪ 846 00:44:19,766 --> 00:44:22,633 ♪ I'll hurt you ♪ -You know, Natalie... 847 00:44:22,633 --> 00:44:23,966 -♪ I'll heal you ♪ 848 00:44:23,966 --> 00:44:25,833 -...it's not all about your comfort. 849 00:44:25,833 --> 00:44:28,433 -♪ I'm your wish, your dream come true ♪ 850 00:44:28,433 --> 00:44:31,133 ♪ And I am your darkest nightmare, too ♪ 851 00:44:31,133 --> 00:44:32,933 ♪ I've shown you ♪ 852 00:44:32,933 --> 00:44:34,333 -It's about helping your mother. 853 00:44:34,333 --> 00:44:36,433 -♪ I own you ♪ 854 00:44:36,433 --> 00:44:37,900 -As always. 855 00:44:37,900 --> 00:44:43,600 -♪ And though you made me, you can't change me ♪ 856 00:44:43,600 --> 00:44:48,666 ♪ I'm the perfect stranger, who knows you too well ♪ 857 00:44:48,666 --> 00:44:52,133 ♪ And I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive ♪ 858 00:44:52,133 --> 00:44:55,100 ♪ And I'll tell you the truth if you let me try ♪ 859 00:44:55,100 --> 00:45:00,466 ♪ You're alive, I'm alive, and I'll show you why I'm alive ♪ 860 00:45:00,466 --> 00:45:03,433 ♪ I'm so alive ♪ 861 00:45:03,433 --> 00:45:06,066 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 862 00:45:07,600 --> 00:45:09,466 -Risperdal. 863 00:45:09,466 --> 00:45:12,466 -♪ I'm alive ♪ 864 00:45:12,466 --> 00:45:15,466 -Valium. Xanax. 865 00:45:15,466 --> 00:45:17,933 -♪ I'm alive ♪ 866 00:45:18,766 --> 00:45:21,233 -What the heck? 867 00:45:21,233 --> 00:45:23,800 -♪ I'm alive ♪ 868 00:45:23,800 --> 00:45:27,366 ♪ I'm right behind you ♪ 869 00:45:28,400 --> 00:45:32,866 ♪ You say "forget," but I remind you ♪ 870 00:45:33,433 --> 00:45:39,333 ♪ You can try to hide, you know that I will find you ♪ 871 00:45:39,333 --> 00:45:42,833 ♪ 'Cause if you won't grieve me ♪ 872 00:45:42,833 --> 00:45:48,233 ♪ You won't leave me behind ♪ 873 00:45:48,233 --> 00:45:51,333 ♪ Ah, hoo ♪ 874 00:45:51,333 --> 00:45:53,800 -Let's say he's 18 now. Isn't that when kids move out? 875 00:45:53,800 --> 00:45:56,300 Isn't it time to let him go? 876 00:45:56,300 --> 00:46:00,266 -♪ No, no, no, I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive ♪ 877 00:46:00,266 --> 00:46:03,433 ♪ If you climb on my back, then we both can fly ♪ 878 00:46:03,433 --> 00:46:06,433 ♪ If you try to deny me, I'll never die ♪ 879 00:46:06,433 --> 00:46:08,733 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 880 00:46:08,733 --> 00:46:11,700 ♪ I'm so alive ♪ 881 00:46:11,700 --> 00:46:14,766 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 882 00:46:14,766 --> 00:46:17,366 ♪ Yeah, yeah ♪ 883 00:46:17,366 --> 00:46:20,366 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 884 00:46:21,033 --> 00:46:26,666 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 885 00:46:27,300 --> 00:46:35,100 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 886 00:46:35,100 --> 00:46:37,100 [ Cheers and applause ] 887 00:46:51,500 --> 00:46:56,900 -It's been four weeks, and I'd like to try something new today. 888 00:46:56,900 --> 00:47:01,266 Sometimes, when these stories are hard to tell, 889 00:47:01,266 --> 00:47:02,966 hypnosis can be helpful. 890 00:47:02,966 --> 00:47:05,033 -[ Laughs ] -Oh I, uh... 891 00:47:05,033 --> 00:47:06,800 I don't think I could be hypnotized. 892 00:47:06,800 --> 00:47:08,666 I mean, it's fine. I'm just not the type. 893 00:47:08,666 --> 00:47:11,300 -Uh-huh. Put your feet on the floor. 894 00:47:11,300 --> 00:47:14,566 ♪♪ 895 00:47:14,566 --> 00:47:17,133 Your hands in your lap. 896 00:47:18,933 --> 00:47:21,400 Breathe. 897 00:47:21,400 --> 00:47:24,366 -♪ Walk with me, walk with me 898 00:47:24,366 --> 00:47:27,366 -Okay, I'm walking. -♪ Go all the way down ♪ 899 00:47:27,366 --> 00:47:28,866 ♪ Down a long flight of stairs ♪ 900 00:47:28,866 --> 00:47:30,300 -Ooh, stairs! 901 00:47:30,300 --> 00:47:34,133 ♪ Go step by step into the darkness down there ♪ 902 00:47:34,133 --> 00:47:37,600 -Should we turn on a light? You know, for the stairs? 903 00:47:37,600 --> 00:47:39,333 -[ Laughs ] 904 00:47:39,333 --> 00:47:43,333 -♪ Walk with me down a hall ♪ 905 00:47:43,333 --> 00:47:45,166 ♪ A hall that you know ♪ 906 00:47:45,166 --> 00:47:47,400 ♪ At the end, there's a door ♪ 907 00:47:47,400 --> 00:47:53,200 ♪ It's a door that you've never laid eyes on before ♪ 908 00:47:53,200 --> 00:48:05,666 ♪ Open the door ♪ 909 00:48:07,566 --> 00:48:11,233 Can you hear me, Diana? -Yes. 910 00:48:14,733 --> 00:48:17,033 -Are you nervous? 911 00:48:18,200 --> 00:48:20,166 -No. 912 00:48:20,166 --> 00:48:21,833 -Good. 913 00:48:24,133 --> 00:48:26,000 Now... 914 00:48:26,000 --> 00:48:30,366 ♪ Make up your mind to explore yourself ♪ 915 00:48:30,366 --> 00:48:34,166 ♪ Make up your mind, you have stories to tell ♪ 916 00:48:34,166 --> 00:48:38,166 ♪ We'll search in your past for what sorrows may last ♪ 917 00:48:38,166 --> 00:48:42,633 ♪ Then make up your mind to be well ♪ 918 00:48:42,633 --> 00:48:46,933 -Di, you come home from these sessions in tears. 919 00:48:46,933 --> 00:48:49,833 Is this helping, or... 920 00:48:49,833 --> 00:48:51,600 Di? 921 00:48:53,100 --> 00:48:56,400 Di... -We were both undergrads. 922 00:48:56,400 --> 00:49:00,233 Architecture. The baby wasn't planned. 923 00:49:01,500 --> 00:49:02,800 Neither was the marriage. 924 00:49:04,166 --> 00:49:06,600 I'd always expected to be too busy, 925 00:49:06,600 --> 00:49:12,733 but when the baby came, it all seemed to make sense. 926 00:49:12,733 --> 00:49:13,733 Until... 927 00:49:16,766 --> 00:49:18,566 Until... 928 00:49:18,566 --> 00:49:20,500 -Until? 929 00:49:20,500 --> 00:49:22,366 -♪ He's not here ♪ 930 00:49:22,366 --> 00:49:25,233 ♪ He's not here ♪ 931 00:49:25,233 --> 00:49:28,100 ♪ Love, I know you know ♪ 932 00:49:28,100 --> 00:49:30,966 -♪ Make up your mind that you're strong enough ♪ 933 00:49:30,966 --> 00:49:34,733 ♪ Make up your mind, let the truth be revealed ♪ 934 00:49:34,733 --> 00:49:38,833 ♪ Admit what you've lost and live with the cost ♪ 935 00:49:38,833 --> 00:49:42,266 ♪ At times, it does hurt to be healed ♪ 936 00:49:42,266 --> 00:49:43,533 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 937 00:49:43,533 --> 00:49:45,666 -In our first session, you told me... 938 00:49:45,666 --> 00:49:47,033 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 939 00:49:47,033 --> 00:49:48,466 -...that talking through your history... 940 00:49:48,466 --> 00:49:51,800 -♪ Faster than anyone should ♪ 941 00:49:51,800 --> 00:49:53,566 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 942 00:49:53,566 --> 00:49:55,266 -...it feels like it's about someone else. 943 00:49:55,266 --> 00:49:56,700 -♪ Please hear me calling ♪ 944 00:49:56,700 --> 00:49:58,433 -Make it about you. 945 00:49:58,433 --> 00:50:02,700 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling for good ♪ 946 00:50:02,700 --> 00:50:04,566 -[ Sniffles ] 947 00:50:04,566 --> 00:50:06,333 -Hey. -Hey. 948 00:50:06,333 --> 00:50:10,433 -I'm not supposed to be backstage, but, uh... 949 00:50:10,433 --> 00:50:12,300 For luck. 950 00:50:12,300 --> 00:50:14,600 -Uh, did you see my parents out there? 951 00:50:14,600 --> 00:50:16,433 -Are you okay? -Yeah. 952 00:50:16,433 --> 00:50:19,000 Yeah, I'm fine. My dad said they'd both be here. 953 00:50:19,000 --> 00:50:20,633 -Okay, well, I'm sure they will be. 954 00:50:20,633 --> 00:50:22,133 -Will they? 955 00:50:23,266 --> 00:50:25,633 -We had Natalie to re... 956 00:50:30,100 --> 00:50:32,000 And I know she knows. 957 00:50:33,766 --> 00:50:38,133 I couldn't hold her in the hospital. 958 00:50:38,133 --> 00:50:40,433 -Well, where are they? 959 00:50:40,433 --> 00:50:43,400 -I couldn't let myself hold her. 960 00:50:43,400 --> 00:50:44,900 -That's the first time 961 00:50:44,900 --> 00:50:47,700 you've mentioned Natalie in weeks of therapy. 962 00:50:47,700 --> 00:50:49,566 -You gotta be kidding me. 963 00:50:49,566 --> 00:50:52,300 ♪ She's not there ♪ 964 00:50:52,300 --> 00:50:55,733 -♪ She's not there ♪ 965 00:50:55,733 --> 00:50:58,433 ♪ She's not there ♪ 966 00:50:59,100 --> 00:51:03,066 -♪ Make up your mind, you want clarity ♪ 967 00:51:03,066 --> 00:51:06,966 ♪ Take what you know and then make it make sense ♪ 968 00:51:06,966 --> 00:51:10,900 ♪ Just face what you fear, and soon, it comes clear ♪ 969 00:51:10,900 --> 00:51:15,000 ♪ The visions are just your defense ♪ 970 00:51:16,266 --> 00:51:18,133 -Thank you for coming. 971 00:51:19,366 --> 00:51:20,533 Natalie Goodman. 972 00:51:23,533 --> 00:51:26,066 [ Piano plays ] 973 00:51:26,066 --> 00:51:27,500 [ Playing stops ] 974 00:51:27,500 --> 00:51:29,666 -Let's try to understand what all of this is doing to you 975 00:51:29,666 --> 00:51:31,533 and to your family. 976 00:51:34,066 --> 00:51:37,000 [ Plays bad notes, smacks keys ] -Ugh! 977 00:51:37,000 --> 00:51:39,233 -Your grief for your son. 978 00:51:39,233 --> 00:51:41,500 Your distance from Natalie. 979 00:51:42,866 --> 00:51:47,866 -Sorry. Sorry, it's just, um... 980 00:51:50,433 --> 00:51:53,866 You know what the problem with classical is? 981 00:51:53,866 --> 00:51:56,333 It's so rigid 982 00:51:56,333 --> 00:51:58,566 and -- and structured. 983 00:51:58,566 --> 00:52:00,600 You have to play the notes on the page. 984 00:52:00,600 --> 00:52:02,833 There's no room for improvisation. 985 00:52:02,833 --> 00:52:03,866 -Oh, no. 986 00:52:04,800 --> 00:52:06,400 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 987 00:52:06,400 --> 00:52:08,966 -♪ Make up your mind, you can live at last ♪ 988 00:52:08,966 --> 00:52:10,266 -♪ Take a look ♪ 989 00:52:10,266 --> 00:52:13,400 -♪ Make up your mind to be fully alive ♪ 990 00:52:13,400 --> 00:52:15,766 ♪ Embrace what's inside ♪ 991 00:52:15,766 --> 00:52:17,500 ♪ Replace what has died ♪ 992 00:52:17,500 --> 00:52:23,466 ♪ And make up your mind you'll survive ♪ 993 00:52:23,466 --> 00:52:25,466 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling 994 00:52:25,466 --> 00:52:27,166 -Unresolved loss can lead to depression. 995 00:52:27,166 --> 00:52:28,466 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 996 00:52:28,466 --> 00:52:30,600 -Fear of loss to anxiety. 997 00:52:30,600 --> 00:52:33,866 -♪ Flying headfirst into fate ♪ 998 00:52:33,866 --> 00:52:35,400 ♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 999 00:52:35,400 --> 00:52:37,400 -The more you hold on to something you've lost... 1000 00:52:37,400 --> 00:52:39,766 -♪ Please hear me calling ♪ -...the more you fear losing it. 1001 00:52:39,766 --> 00:52:41,366 -♪ Catch me before it's too late ♪ 1002 00:52:41,366 --> 00:52:43,233 -Depression, anxiety. 1003 00:52:43,233 --> 00:52:44,533 -♪ Catch me before it's too late ♪ 1004 00:52:44,533 --> 00:52:46,700 -Depression, anxiety, one gives rise to the other. 1005 00:52:46,700 --> 00:52:47,733 -♪ Catch me before it's too late ♪ 1006 00:52:47,733 --> 00:52:49,466 -It becomes a cycle. 1007 00:52:49,466 --> 00:52:51,633 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 1008 00:52:51,633 --> 00:52:53,866 ♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 1009 00:52:53,866 --> 00:52:56,333 ♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ 1010 00:52:57,600 --> 00:53:01,500 -Wouldn't you like to be free from all of that, finally? 1011 00:53:02,566 --> 00:53:05,533 Wouldn't you like to go home, clear out his things, 1012 00:53:05,533 --> 00:53:07,833 maybe spend some time with your daughter, 1013 00:53:07,833 --> 00:53:12,966 and let your son go at last? 1014 00:53:12,966 --> 00:53:14,833 -Uh, should we go? 1015 00:53:16,966 --> 00:53:19,433 -Yes. -Yes. 1016 00:53:19,433 --> 00:53:21,033 -Mom? 1017 00:53:21,033 --> 00:53:22,633 -Yes, I would. 1018 00:53:22,633 --> 00:53:24,600 -[ Crying ] 1019 00:53:24,600 --> 00:53:54,666 ♪♪ 1020 00:53:54,666 --> 00:53:57,300 -This, um... 1021 00:53:57,300 --> 00:54:01,166 This is good, Di. This is a good step. 1022 00:54:01,166 --> 00:54:11,066 ♪♪ 1023 00:54:15,966 --> 00:54:18,866 -Okay. [ Sniffles ] 1024 00:55:01,300 --> 00:55:03,700 [ Whimpers ] 1025 00:55:03,700 --> 00:55:06,000 [ Crying ] My baby. 1026 00:55:37,433 --> 00:55:45,600 ♪♪ 1027 00:55:45,600 --> 00:55:47,600 [ Humming ] 1028 00:55:53,766 --> 00:56:01,700 ♪ I saw you light the ballroom ♪ 1029 00:56:01,700 --> 00:56:07,300 ♪ With your sparkling eyes of blue ♪ 1030 00:56:10,066 --> 00:56:15,400 ♪ Graceful as an angel's wing ♪ 1031 00:56:15,400 --> 00:56:20,233 ♪ I dreamed a dance with you ♪ 1032 00:56:20,233 --> 00:56:26,000 ♪♪ 1033 00:56:26,000 --> 00:56:30,500 ♪ You whispered slyly, softly ♪ 1034 00:56:32,166 --> 00:56:37,700 ♪ You told me you would be true ♪ 1035 00:56:37,700 --> 00:56:42,000 ♪ We spun around a thousand stars ♪ 1036 00:56:42,000 --> 00:56:46,900 ♪ I dreamed a dance with you ♪ 1037 00:56:46,900 --> 00:56:51,366 ♪♪ 1038 00:56:51,366 --> 00:56:57,133 ♪ I know the night is dying, dear ♪ 1039 00:56:57,133 --> 00:57:02,700 ♪ I know the day will dawn ♪ 1040 00:57:02,700 --> 00:57:06,466 -♪ The dancers may disappear ♪ 1041 00:57:06,466 --> 00:57:12,600 ♪ Still, the dance goes on ♪ 1042 00:57:15,533 --> 00:57:20,266 -♪ And on ♪ 1043 00:57:23,833 --> 00:57:28,433 -♪ I'll wake alone tomorrow ♪ 1044 00:57:31,100 --> 00:57:36,166 ♪ The dream of our dance is through ♪ 1045 00:57:38,566 --> 00:57:43,166 ♪ But now until forever, love ♪ 1046 00:57:43,166 --> 00:57:47,500 ♪ I'll live to dance with you ♪ 1047 00:57:51,466 --> 00:57:54,666 ♪ I'll dream my love ♪ 1048 00:57:54,666 --> 00:57:57,700 ♪ I'll live my love ♪ 1049 00:57:57,700 --> 00:58:03,800 ♪ And I'll die to dance with ♪ 1050 00:58:03,800 --> 00:58:12,600 ♪♪ 1051 00:58:12,600 --> 00:58:17,533 -♪ There's a world ♪ 1052 00:58:17,533 --> 00:58:20,866 ♪ There's a world I know ♪ 1053 00:58:20,866 --> 00:58:24,666 ♪ A place we can go ♪ 1054 00:58:24,666 --> 00:58:31,066 ♪ Where the pain will go away ♪ 1055 00:58:32,533 --> 00:58:41,633 ♪ There's a world where the sun shines each day ♪ 1056 00:58:45,600 --> 00:58:50,233 ♪ There's a world ♪ 1057 00:58:50,233 --> 00:58:53,000 ♪ There's a world out there ♪ 1058 00:58:53,000 --> 00:58:56,466 ♪ I'll show you just where ♪ 1059 00:58:56,466 --> 00:59:02,466 ♪ And in time, I know you'll see ♪ 1060 00:59:02,466 --> 00:59:10,033 ♪ There's a world where we ♪ 1061 00:59:10,033 --> 00:59:17,633 ♪ Can be free ♪ 1062 00:59:22,766 --> 00:59:27,566 ♪ Come with me ♪ 1063 00:59:27,566 --> 00:59:29,466 -Goodman, Diana. 1064 00:59:29,466 --> 00:59:33,100 -♪ Come with me ♪ 1065 00:59:33,100 --> 00:59:36,433 -Discovered unconscious at home. 1066 00:59:36,433 --> 00:59:42,400 -♪ There's a world where we can be free ♪ 1067 00:59:42,400 --> 00:59:44,900 -Multiple razor wounds to wrists and forearms, 1068 00:59:44,900 --> 00:59:46,800 self-inflicted. 1069 00:59:46,800 --> 00:59:52,833 -♪ Come with me ♪ 1070 00:59:52,833 --> 00:59:57,500 -Saline rinse, sutures, gauze, I.V., antibiotics, 1071 00:59:57,500 --> 00:59:59,600 isolated, sedated, and restrained. 1072 00:59:59,600 --> 01:00:01,033 Damn it! 1073 01:00:02,766 --> 01:00:04,466 ECT is indicated. 1074 01:00:06,633 --> 01:00:09,500 -Wow! Um... 1075 01:00:10,466 --> 01:00:11,833 I mean, they still do that? 1076 01:00:11,833 --> 01:00:13,200 -We do, yes. 1077 01:00:13,200 --> 01:00:15,066 It's the standard in cases like this. 1078 01:00:15,066 --> 01:00:17,166 She's got a long history of drug-therapy resistance, 1079 01:00:17,166 --> 01:00:18,533 and she's acutely suicidal. 1080 01:00:18,533 --> 01:00:20,000 It's really our best option. 1081 01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:21,933 -It's kind of terrifying. -It's not. 1082 01:00:21,933 --> 01:00:24,033 The electricity involved is barely enough 1083 01:00:24,033 --> 01:00:25,933 to light a 100-watt bulb. 1084 01:00:25,933 --> 01:00:28,233 -Oh, well, if it's just a 100-watt bulb... 1085 01:00:28,233 --> 01:00:30,066 -It's safer than crossing the street, 1086 01:00:30,066 --> 01:00:33,133 and the short-term success rate is over 80%. 1087 01:00:34,366 --> 01:00:36,433 -I thought she was better. 1088 01:00:37,600 --> 01:00:40,200 -Sometimes, patients regain just enough strength 1089 01:00:40,200 --> 01:00:42,233 to follow through on suicidal impulses, 1090 01:00:42,233 --> 01:00:44,966 but not enough to resist them. 1091 01:00:46,500 --> 01:00:49,666 -Well, that seems very messed up. 1092 01:00:49,666 --> 01:00:51,300 -Yes. 1093 01:00:51,300 --> 01:00:53,300 Legally, we need her consent, 1094 01:00:53,300 --> 01:00:55,533 and hospital policy says we need yours, too. 1095 01:00:55,533 --> 01:00:57,266 -I don't think she's gonna go for this. 1096 01:00:57,266 --> 01:00:58,966 -Mr. Goodman, I can administer the ECT 1097 01:00:58,966 --> 01:01:01,033 and you can take her home in three weeks, 1098 01:01:01,033 --> 01:01:03,866 or I can keep her sedated for another 48 hours, 1099 01:01:03,866 --> 01:01:07,700 discharge her, and wait for her to try again. 1100 01:01:09,666 --> 01:01:13,033 Go home, take the night. 1101 01:01:16,533 --> 01:01:19,033 We'll talk to her in the morning. 1102 01:01:21,266 --> 01:01:31,300 ♪♪ 1103 01:01:31,300 --> 01:01:33,533 -♪ Standing in this room ♪ 1104 01:01:33,533 --> 01:01:36,400 ♪ Well, I wonder what comes now ♪ 1105 01:01:36,400 --> 01:01:38,733 ♪ I know I have to help her ♪ 1106 01:01:38,733 --> 01:01:41,433 ♪ But hell if I know how ♪ 1107 01:01:41,433 --> 01:01:44,100 ♪ And all the times that I've been told ♪ 1108 01:01:44,100 --> 01:01:46,466 ♪ The way her illness goes ♪ 1109 01:01:46,466 --> 01:01:50,233 ♪ The truth of it is, no one really knows ♪ 1110 01:01:51,633 --> 01:01:56,766 ♪ And every day, this act we act gets more and more absurd ♪ 1111 01:01:56,766 --> 01:01:59,266 ♪ And all my fears just sit inside me, 1112 01:01:59,266 --> 01:02:01,200 screaming to be heard ♪ 1113 01:02:01,933 --> 01:02:06,600 ♪ I know they won't, though, not a single word ♪ 1114 01:02:06,600 --> 01:02:09,400 ♪ I was here, at her side ♪ 1115 01:02:09,400 --> 01:02:12,600 ♪ When she called, when she cried ♪ 1116 01:02:12,600 --> 01:02:16,366 ♪ How could she leave me on my own? ♪ 1117 01:02:16,366 --> 01:02:19,433 ♪ Will it work, this cure? ♪ 1118 01:02:19,433 --> 01:02:24,666 ♪ There's no way to be sure ♪ 1119 01:02:24,666 --> 01:02:27,133 ♪ But I'm weary to the bone ♪ 1120 01:02:27,133 --> 01:02:29,733 ♪ And whenever she goes flying ♪ 1121 01:02:31,566 --> 01:02:35,166 ♪ I keep my feet right on the ground ♪ 1122 01:02:36,766 --> 01:02:44,766 ♪ Oh, now I need a lift, and there's no one around ♪ 1123 01:02:49,233 --> 01:02:52,033 ♪ Hey ♪ 1124 01:02:52,033 --> 01:02:57,433 -♪ Hey, oh ♪ 1125 01:02:57,433 --> 01:03:02,933 -♪ Oh, ooh ♪ -♪ Oh, ooh ♪ 1126 01:03:02,933 --> 01:03:06,733 -♪ You know ♪ 1127 01:03:06,733 --> 01:03:11,966 ♪ And I've never had to face the world without her at my side ♪ 1128 01:03:11,966 --> 01:03:14,400 ♪ Now I'm strolling right beside her 1129 01:03:14,400 --> 01:03:17,066 as the black hole opens wide ♪ 1130 01:03:17,066 --> 01:03:21,800 ♪ Mine is just a slower suicide ♪ 1131 01:03:21,800 --> 01:03:27,233 ♪♪ 1132 01:03:27,233 --> 01:03:31,666 ♪ I've been here for the show ♪ 1133 01:03:31,666 --> 01:03:35,900 ♪ Every high, every low ♪ 1134 01:03:35,900 --> 01:03:39,033 ♪ But it's the worst we've ever known ♪ 1135 01:03:40,800 --> 01:03:44,266 ♪ She's been hurt, and how ♪ 1136 01:03:44,266 --> 01:03:52,633 ♪ But I can't give up now ♪ 1137 01:03:52,633 --> 01:03:54,800 ♪ 'Cause I've never been alone ♪ 1138 01:03:54,800 --> 01:03:59,100 ♪♪ 1139 01:03:59,100 --> 01:04:01,533 ♪ I could never be alone ♪ 1140 01:04:01,533 --> 01:04:10,833 ♪♪ 1141 01:04:10,833 --> 01:04:12,400 -Why didn't you take me with you? 1142 01:04:12,400 --> 01:04:13,433 -Don't see a lot of you these days. 1143 01:04:13,433 --> 01:04:16,266 This Henry a good influence? 1144 01:04:16,266 --> 01:04:19,066 -Like, compared to what? 1145 01:04:22,066 --> 01:04:24,333 -Okay, that's fair. 1146 01:04:24,333 --> 01:04:25,566 ♪♪ 1147 01:04:25,566 --> 01:04:27,366 The aftereffects are minimal. 1148 01:04:27,366 --> 01:04:29,100 You'll feel like you have a bit of a hangover. 1149 01:04:29,100 --> 01:04:32,700 -Mom? Mom! Please don't let them do this. 1150 01:04:32,700 --> 01:04:34,466 It causes brain damage. 1151 01:04:34,466 --> 01:04:37,366 -Your mother's in for a new treatment, ECT. 1152 01:04:37,366 --> 01:04:40,200 -Okay. L-M-N-O-P. What is that? 1153 01:04:40,200 --> 01:04:42,933 -Electroconvulsive therapy. Shock therapy. 1154 01:04:42,933 --> 01:04:46,433 -A minority of patients have reported some memory loss, 1155 01:04:46,433 --> 01:04:48,166 but it's usually not much memory. 1156 01:04:48,166 --> 01:04:52,300 -How do you know how much memory you've lost if you've lost it? 1157 01:04:52,300 --> 01:04:54,700 -You're kidding, right? 1158 01:04:54,700 --> 01:04:57,266 Dad, that's bull! -Language! 1159 01:04:57,266 --> 01:05:00,166 -Patients have said it's like becoming a new person. 1160 01:05:00,166 --> 01:05:03,366 -It's bull! She trusts you! -Oh, Natalie! 1161 01:05:03,366 --> 01:05:08,200 -♪ Didn't I see this movie with McMurphy and the nurse? ♪ 1162 01:05:08,200 --> 01:05:14,266 ♪ That hospital was heavy, but this cuckoo's nest is worse ♪ 1163 01:05:14,266 --> 01:05:19,533 ♪ Isn't this the one where, in the end, the good guys fry? 1164 01:05:19,533 --> 01:05:24,333 ♪ Didn't I see this movie and didn't I cry? ♪ 1165 01:05:24,333 --> 01:05:26,733 ♪ Didn't I cry? ♪ 1166 01:05:26,733 --> 01:05:29,500 -The modern procedure is clean and simple. 1167 01:05:29,500 --> 01:05:32,866 Hundreds of thousands of patients receive it every year. 1168 01:05:32,866 --> 01:05:37,966 -♪ What makes you think I'd lose my mind for you? ♪ 1169 01:05:37,966 --> 01:05:43,666 ♪ I'm no sociopath, I'm no Sylvia Plath ♪ 1170 01:05:43,666 --> 01:05:48,866 ♪ I ain't no Frances Farmer kind of find for you ♪ 1171 01:05:48,866 --> 01:05:51,866 ♪ So stay out of my brain ♪ 1172 01:05:51,866 --> 01:05:55,100 ♪ I'm no princess of pain ♪ 1173 01:05:55,100 --> 01:05:59,200 ♪ Didn't I see this movie with a doctor dressed like you? ♪ 1174 01:05:59,200 --> 01:06:03,366 ♪ Where the patient got impatient and said, 1175 01:06:03,366 --> 01:06:05,966 "Sorry, Doc, I'm through"? ♪ 1176 01:06:05,966 --> 01:06:11,300 ♪ I know where this is going and I know what you're about ♪ 1177 01:06:11,300 --> 01:06:15,933 ♪ 'Cause I have seen this movie and I walked out ♪ 1178 01:06:15,933 --> 01:06:19,066 ♪ I walked out ♪ 1179 01:06:19,066 --> 01:06:24,466 ♪ I'm walking ♪ 1180 01:06:24,466 --> 01:06:36,600 ♪♪ 1181 01:06:36,600 --> 01:06:42,300 -♪ One light shines in the drive ♪ 1182 01:06:42,300 --> 01:06:47,533 ♪ One single sign that our house is alive ♪ 1183 01:06:47,533 --> 01:06:50,333 ♪ Our house ♪ 1184 01:06:50,333 --> 01:06:53,033 ♪ Our own ♪ 1185 01:06:53,033 --> 01:06:56,866 ♪ So why do I live there alone? ♪ 1186 01:06:58,200 --> 01:07:03,333 ♪ Tell me why I wait through the night ♪ 1187 01:07:03,333 --> 01:07:08,500 ♪ And why do I leave on the light? ♪ 1188 01:07:08,500 --> 01:07:11,800 ♪ You know ♪ 1189 01:07:11,800 --> 01:07:14,400 ♪ I know ♪ 1190 01:07:14,400 --> 01:07:19,333 ♪ Our house was a home long ago ♪ 1191 01:07:21,766 --> 01:07:24,700 ♪ Take this chance ♪ 1192 01:07:24,700 --> 01:07:29,233 ♪ 'Cause it may be our last to be free ♪ 1193 01:07:29,233 --> 01:07:31,966 ♪ To let go of the past ♪ 1194 01:07:31,966 --> 01:07:36,366 ♪ And to try to be husband and wife ♪ 1195 01:07:36,366 --> 01:07:39,000 ♪ To let love never die ♪ 1196 01:07:39,000 --> 01:07:40,800 ♪ Or to just live our life ♪ 1197 01:07:40,800 --> 01:07:43,566 ♪ Take my hand ♪ 1198 01:07:43,566 --> 01:07:45,966 ♪ And let me take your heart ♪ 1199 01:07:45,966 --> 01:07:50,533 ♪ Keep it far from what keeps us apart ♪ 1200 01:07:50,533 --> 01:07:52,466 ♪ Let us start ♪ 1201 01:07:54,233 --> 01:07:59,833 ♪ With a light in the dark ♪ 1202 01:07:59,833 --> 01:08:03,366 ♪ Night falls, I stare at the walls ♪ 1203 01:08:03,366 --> 01:08:04,700 -♪ I stare at these walls ♪ 1204 01:08:04,700 --> 01:08:07,633 -♪ I wake and wander the halls ♪ 1205 01:08:07,633 --> 01:08:09,100 -♪ I get lost in these halls ♪ 1206 01:08:09,100 --> 01:08:11,233 -♪ And I ache to the bone ♪ 1207 01:08:11,233 --> 01:08:13,966 -♪ It's like nothing I've known ♪ 1208 01:08:13,966 --> 01:08:19,600 -♪ I can't get through this alone ♪ 1209 01:08:23,633 --> 01:08:26,800 - ♪ Take this chance ♪ 1210 01:08:26,800 --> 01:08:29,500 ♪ And we'll make a new start ♪ 1211 01:08:29,500 --> 01:08:34,466 ♪ Somewhere far from what keeps us apart ♪ 1212 01:08:34,466 --> 01:08:38,600 ♪ And I swear that somewhere in the night ♪ 1213 01:08:38,600 --> 01:08:44,200 ♪ There's a light ♪ 1214 01:08:58,133 --> 01:09:03,200 ♪ A light in the dark ♪ 1215 01:09:03,200 --> 01:09:18,133 ♪♪ 1216 01:09:18,133 --> 01:09:20,133 [ Cheers and applause ] 1217 01:09:26,466 --> 01:09:58,366 ♪♪ 1218 01:09:58,366 --> 01:10:00,600 -Come on, this is my favorite club. Let's go. 1219 01:10:00,600 --> 01:10:03,700 -Isn't three clubs a little much for a Tuesday night? 1220 01:10:03,700 --> 01:10:05,400 Wednesday morning. 1221 01:10:05,400 --> 01:10:06,700 -Come on, they're playing my favorite song. 1222 01:10:06,700 --> 01:10:08,866 -They're all your favorite song. What are you on? 1223 01:10:08,866 --> 01:10:13,200 -Uh, Adderall. And Xanax. And Valium. 1224 01:10:13,200 --> 01:10:14,766 And Robitussin. 1225 01:10:14,766 --> 01:10:16,400 -Since when did you become a bad influence on me? 1226 01:10:16,400 --> 01:10:18,733 -Hey, I'm under stress. 1227 01:10:18,733 --> 01:10:20,666 My mom's in a hospital, being electrocuted. 1228 01:10:20,666 --> 01:10:22,866 -Good morning, Diana. It's good to see you again. 1229 01:10:22,866 --> 01:10:24,633 -Seriously, she gets it like 1230 01:10:24,633 --> 01:10:27,133 every other day for the next three weeks. 1231 01:10:27,133 --> 01:10:28,666 I can't even deal. 1232 01:10:28,666 --> 01:10:31,166 I'd never let them mess with my brain like that. 1233 01:10:31,166 --> 01:10:33,300 No, you're strictly a do-it-yourselfer. 1234 01:10:33,300 --> 01:10:35,500 -I see you've met our anesthesiologist. 1235 01:10:35,500 --> 01:10:37,966 Now, just relax, breathe normally, 1236 01:10:37,966 --> 01:10:40,666 count backwards from 100, and before you reach zero, 1237 01:10:40,666 --> 01:10:42,433 you should be asleep. 1238 01:10:42,433 --> 01:10:44,700 When you wake up, you may feel some muscle stiffness, 1239 01:10:44,700 --> 01:10:46,100 disorientation. 1240 01:10:46,100 --> 01:10:47,633 Don't worry. It's completely normal. 1241 01:10:48,633 --> 01:10:50,200 Diana? 1242 01:10:50,200 --> 01:10:53,933 Diana? Ah, good. 1243 01:10:53,933 --> 01:10:58,800 ♪♪ 1244 01:10:58,800 --> 01:11:01,466 -♪ In an instant, lightning flashes ♪ 1245 01:11:01,466 --> 01:11:04,066 ♪ And the burst might leave me blind ♪ 1246 01:11:06,233 --> 01:11:08,833 ♪ When the bolt of lightning crashes ♪ 1247 01:11:08,833 --> 01:11:13,533 ♪ And it burns right through my mind ♪ 1248 01:11:13,533 --> 01:11:16,200 ♪ It's like someone drained my brain out ♪ 1249 01:11:16,200 --> 01:11:19,066 ♪ Set my frozen mind to thaw ♪ 1250 01:11:21,233 --> 01:11:23,733 ♪ Let the lethargy and pain out ♪ 1251 01:11:23,733 --> 01:11:28,400 ♪ While I stood and watched in awe ♪ 1252 01:11:28,400 --> 01:11:32,633 ♪ I am riding on the brightest buzz ♪ 1253 01:11:32,633 --> 01:11:36,233 ♪ I am worlds away from who I was ♪ 1254 01:11:36,233 --> 01:11:38,800 ♪ And they told me it would change me ♪ 1255 01:11:38,800 --> 01:11:40,533 ♪ Though they don't know how it does ♪ 1256 01:11:40,533 --> 01:11:43,600 -♪ Though they don't know how it does ♪ 1257 01:11:43,600 --> 01:11:46,800 -♪ I have lived a life of clouds and gray, 1258 01:11:46,800 --> 01:11:48,333 but this is crystal-clear ♪ 1259 01:11:48,333 --> 01:11:50,900 ♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1260 01:11:50,900 --> 01:11:55,433 -♪ I imagine it's remarkable, exuberant, austere ♪ 1261 01:11:55,433 --> 01:11:57,000 ♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1262 01:11:57,000 --> 01:11:59,333 -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1263 01:11:59,333 --> 01:12:01,300 -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1264 01:12:01,300 --> 01:12:03,766 -♪ It's euphoria, it's anger ♪ 1265 01:12:03,766 --> 01:12:05,566 ♪ It's the winter wind, it's fire ♪ 1266 01:12:05,566 --> 01:12:08,766 -♪ It's the winter wind, it's fire ♪ 1267 01:12:08,766 --> 01:12:11,133 -♪ And it kills my deepest hunger 1268 01:12:11,133 --> 01:12:15,900 as it fills me with desire ♪ 1269 01:12:15,900 --> 01:12:18,433 ♪ I'm the light and heat of every sun ♪ 1270 01:12:18,433 --> 01:12:20,000 -♪ I'm the light and heat of every sun ♪ 1271 01:12:20,000 --> 01:12:21,833 -♪ I'm a bullet from a magic gun ♪ 1272 01:12:21,833 --> 01:12:24,000 -♪ I'm a bullet from a magic gun ♪ 1273 01:12:24,000 --> 01:12:26,300 -♪ And I'm trying to enjoy it ♪ 1274 01:12:26,300 --> 01:12:31,166 -♪ But I'm missing all the fun ♪ -♪ I am missing all the fun ♪ 1275 01:12:31,166 --> 01:12:33,866 -♪ Am I feeling what I think I'm feeling? ♪ 1276 01:12:33,866 --> 01:12:35,766 ♪ The hope, the heat, the fear ♪ 1277 01:12:35,766 --> 01:12:38,566 -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1278 01:12:38,566 --> 01:12:41,533 -♪ Is this someone else's head trip? ♪ 1279 01:12:41,533 --> 01:12:43,500 ♪ Do I just disappear? ♪ 1280 01:12:43,500 --> 01:12:45,900 -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1281 01:12:45,900 --> 01:12:48,966 -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were ♪ 1282 01:12:48,966 --> 01:12:51,100 ♪ Here ♪ -Natalie. 1283 01:12:51,100 --> 01:12:53,800 What are you doing in my electricity? 1284 01:12:53,800 --> 01:12:56,400 -It's always all about you, isn't it? 1285 01:12:56,400 --> 01:12:59,300 I'm robo-trippin'. I can't feel my legs. 1286 01:12:59,300 --> 01:13:01,600 -I don't want you doing drugs. 1287 01:13:01,600 --> 01:13:06,000 -Well, that's persuasive, coming from Pfizer's Woman of the Year. 1288 01:13:06,000 --> 01:13:07,833 You're the one who's hallucinating. 1289 01:13:07,833 --> 01:13:10,400 -It's my treatment. 1290 01:13:10,400 --> 01:13:13,133 It's a miracle. 1291 01:13:13,133 --> 01:13:15,100 Everything is different now. 1292 01:13:15,100 --> 01:13:16,766 -I know what you mean. 1293 01:13:18,233 --> 01:13:22,300 -♪ Plug me in and turn me on ♪ 1294 01:13:22,300 --> 01:13:26,866 ♪ And flip the switch, I'm good as gone ♪ 1295 01:13:26,866 --> 01:13:31,333 ♪ It slips my skin and trips my brain ♪ 1296 01:13:31,333 --> 01:13:38,033 ♪ I feel the burn, but I don't feel the pain ♪ 1297 01:13:38,033 --> 01:13:40,866 ♪ Is my brain reborn or is it wrecked? ♪ 1298 01:13:40,866 --> 01:13:42,866 ♪ In freedom or in fear? ♪ 1299 01:13:42,866 --> 01:13:45,433 -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1300 01:13:45,433 --> 01:13:48,366 -♪ Have I blown my mind forever? ♪ 1301 01:13:48,366 --> 01:13:50,133 ♪ Is cloudy my new clear? 1302 01:13:50,133 --> 01:13:52,833 -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1303 01:13:52,833 --> 01:13:57,233 -♪ Wish I were here ♪ -♪ Wish I were ♪ 1304 01:13:57,233 --> 01:13:59,866 -Natalie! Natalie, come on! 1305 01:14:02,200 --> 01:14:04,033 This is the fifth night in a row 1306 01:14:04,033 --> 01:14:06,133 I've had to come and find you at some random club. 1307 01:14:06,133 --> 01:14:08,766 -Diana? 1308 01:14:08,766 --> 01:14:10,566 -Dan. 1309 01:14:10,566 --> 01:14:14,633 -Three weeks are up. It's time to go home. 1310 01:14:14,633 --> 01:14:16,700 -Home? But, I -- -No, don't -- don't talk. 1311 01:14:16,700 --> 01:14:18,700 Just relax. 1312 01:14:21,866 --> 01:14:24,733 -Okay, you can go. 1313 01:14:24,733 --> 01:14:27,333 I'm like 70% less messed up now. 1314 01:14:28,400 --> 01:14:31,166 Seriously, my dad's gonna be home any minute. 1315 01:14:31,166 --> 01:14:32,800 He's bringing my mom back from the hospital. 1316 01:14:32,800 --> 01:14:34,133 You don't wanna be here. 1317 01:14:34,133 --> 01:14:36,500 -Will you call me? -Just go! 1318 01:14:42,433 --> 01:14:46,766 ♪ Can I hide my stupid hunger? ♪ 1319 01:14:46,766 --> 01:14:51,166 ♪ Fake some confidence and cheer? ♪ 1320 01:14:51,166 --> 01:14:55,600 ♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1321 01:14:57,433 --> 01:15:04,000 ♪ Wish I were here ♪ 1322 01:15:04,000 --> 01:15:08,733 ♪♪ 1323 01:15:08,733 --> 01:15:10,766 -We're here. -Hey. 1324 01:15:12,200 --> 01:15:14,766 Wow! You look great. 1325 01:15:14,766 --> 01:15:17,466 -Oh, well, thank you. 1326 01:15:19,033 --> 01:15:20,066 And who are you? 1327 01:15:22,133 --> 01:15:25,233 -Who am I? -Diana, this is Natalie. 1328 01:15:27,466 --> 01:15:28,733 -Your daughter. 1329 01:15:29,800 --> 01:15:33,100 -Oh. Of course. 1330 01:15:34,766 --> 01:15:37,133 And this is our house? 1331 01:15:38,300 --> 01:15:40,100 -Diana, don't you... 1332 01:15:40,100 --> 01:15:42,700 ♪♪ 1333 01:15:42,700 --> 01:15:46,933 Um, you don't remember any of this? 1334 01:15:46,933 --> 01:15:48,933 -I should, right? 1335 01:15:48,933 --> 01:15:52,533 -♪ This house and all these rooms ♪ 1336 01:15:52,533 --> 01:15:56,966 ♪ Last Christmas or last year ♪ 1337 01:15:56,966 --> 01:16:01,000 ♪ Out back, the dogwood blooms ♪ 1338 01:16:01,000 --> 01:16:05,166 -♪ Do I really live here? ♪ 1339 01:16:05,166 --> 01:16:07,833 -♪ The paint, the walls ♪ 1340 01:16:07,833 --> 01:16:10,833 ♪ All this glass and wood ♪ 1341 01:16:10,833 --> 01:16:13,466 ♪ You don't recall? ♪ 1342 01:16:13,466 --> 01:16:16,000 -♪ How I wish I could ♪ 1343 01:16:16,000 --> 01:16:20,033 -♪ Our house on Walton Way ♪ 1344 01:16:20,033 --> 01:16:23,700 ♪ The house with the red door? 1345 01:16:25,033 --> 01:16:28,566 ♪ Our trip to St. Tropez ♪ 1346 01:16:28,566 --> 01:16:32,366 ♪ The whole week a downpour? ♪ 1347 01:16:32,366 --> 01:16:35,100 -♪ My first few steps ♪ 1348 01:16:35,100 --> 01:16:37,866 ♪ And my first lost tooth ♪ 1349 01:16:37,866 --> 01:16:40,633 ♪ What, nothing yet? ♪ 1350 01:16:40,633 --> 01:16:43,100 -♪ To tell the truth ♪ 1351 01:16:43,100 --> 01:16:48,633 -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ 1352 01:16:48,633 --> 01:16:53,066 ♪ A song of the way things were not ♪ 1353 01:16:53,066 --> 01:16:56,633 ♪ Sing of what's lost to you ♪ 1354 01:16:58,333 --> 01:17:04,866 ♪ Of times that you never knew ♪ 1355 01:17:04,866 --> 01:17:09,866 ♪ Sing of not remembering when ♪ 1356 01:17:09,866 --> 01:17:15,366 ♪ Of memories that go unremembered, and then ♪ 1357 01:17:15,366 --> 01:17:23,833 ♪ Sing a song of forgetting again ♪ 1358 01:17:23,833 --> 01:17:27,000 ♪ That day our child was born ♪ 1359 01:17:27,000 --> 01:17:30,866 ♪ Our baby girl's first cry ♪ 1360 01:17:31,833 --> 01:17:35,233 ♪ That gray and drizzly morn ♪ 1361 01:17:35,233 --> 01:17:39,000 ♪ I've never felt so high ♪ 1362 01:17:39,000 --> 01:17:41,433 -♪ The day we met ♪ 1363 01:17:41,433 --> 01:17:43,933 ♪ And we shared two beers ♪ 1364 01:17:43,933 --> 01:17:45,633 -♪ Then? ♪ 1365 01:17:45,633 --> 01:17:50,500 ♪ I forget ♪ -♪ That's nineteen years ♪ 1366 01:17:50,500 --> 01:17:55,600 -Well, Dr. Mitchell did say there may be some memory loss. 1367 01:17:55,600 --> 01:17:57,733 -It's Dr. Madden. 1368 01:17:57,733 --> 01:17:59,300 -Well, see? There you go. 1369 01:18:00,700 --> 01:18:02,666 -♪ What a lovely cure ♪ 1370 01:18:02,666 --> 01:18:05,200 ♪ It's a medical miracle ♪ 1371 01:18:05,200 --> 01:18:07,933 ♪ With a mind so pure ♪ 1372 01:18:07,933 --> 01:18:10,200 ♪ That she doesn't know anything ♪ 1373 01:18:10,200 --> 01:18:12,366 -♪ It's there, I'm sure ♪ 1374 01:18:12,366 --> 01:18:15,200 ♪ 'Cause memories don't die ♪ 1375 01:18:15,200 --> 01:18:18,533 -♪ Why? ♪ 1376 01:18:18,533 --> 01:18:20,466 -♪ They don't die ♪ -♪ They die ♪ 1377 01:18:20,466 --> 01:18:23,866 -♪ I'll try ♪ 1378 01:18:24,766 --> 01:18:29,700 -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ 1379 01:18:29,700 --> 01:18:34,000 -♪ A song of the way things were not ♪ 1380 01:18:34,000 --> 01:18:37,166 -♪ Sing of what's lost to you ♪ -♪ What's lost to you ♪ 1381 01:18:37,166 --> 01:18:38,900 ♪ What's lost to you ♪ 1382 01:18:38,900 --> 01:18:40,300 -♪ Of times that you never knew ♪ 1383 01:18:40,300 --> 01:18:42,833 -♪ What's lost to you ♪ 1384 01:18:42,833 --> 01:18:45,866 ♪ You never knew ♪ 1385 01:18:45,866 --> 01:18:50,700 -♪ Sing of not remembering when ♪ 1386 01:18:50,700 --> 01:18:56,800 ♪ Of memories that go unremembered, and then ♪ 1387 01:18:56,800 --> 01:19:02,700 -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ 1388 01:19:02,700 --> 01:19:08,733 -♪ Sing a song of forgetting ♪ 1389 01:19:08,733 --> 01:19:13,400 -♪ Again ♪ 1390 01:19:13,400 --> 01:19:17,433 [ Bell rings ] 1391 01:19:17,433 --> 01:19:21,100 ♪♪ 1392 01:19:21,100 --> 01:19:24,733 -♪ Hey ♪ -♪ Hey ♪ 1393 01:19:24,733 --> 01:19:27,266 -♪ I've missed you these days ♪ 1394 01:19:29,100 --> 01:19:32,766 ♪ I thought you might call ♪ 1395 01:19:32,766 --> 01:19:34,366 ♪ It's been weeks ♪ 1396 01:19:34,366 --> 01:19:38,533 -♪ I've been crazed ♪ 1397 01:19:38,533 --> 01:19:40,200 ♪ Hey ♪ 1398 01:19:40,200 --> 01:19:44,266 ♪ Have you been on the scene? ♪ 1399 01:19:44,266 --> 01:19:47,600 ♪ 'Cause you look like a mess ♪ 1400 01:19:47,600 --> 01:19:49,266 -♪ Thanks, I guess ♪ 1401 01:19:49,266 --> 01:19:51,733 -♪ Are you clean? ♪ 1402 01:19:51,733 --> 01:19:53,566 -♪ Wow! Coming from you! ♪ 1403 01:19:53,566 --> 01:19:55,533 -♪ I don't do what you do ♪ 1404 01:19:55,533 --> 01:19:57,466 -♪ Okay, how did it start? ♪ 1405 01:19:57,466 --> 01:19:59,266 -♪ But you took it too far ♪ 1406 01:19:59,266 --> 01:20:02,100 -♪ Oh, I took it too far? ♪ -♪ Hey, hey ♪ 1407 01:20:02,100 --> 01:20:03,633 -♪ Henry, don't, don't do this to me ♪ 1408 01:20:03,633 --> 01:20:08,433 -♪ Are we over? ♪ Don't say that we're over ♪ 1409 01:20:08,433 --> 01:20:09,733 -♪ Don't you want us to be? ♪ 1410 01:20:09,733 --> 01:20:13,433 -♪ No, I want who I knew ♪ 1411 01:20:13,433 --> 01:20:18,166 ♪ She's somewhere in you ♪ 1412 01:20:20,300 --> 01:20:24,066 ♪ Hey ♪ ♪ Say ♪ 1413 01:20:24,066 --> 01:20:27,400 ♪ Will you come to this dance? ♪ 1414 01:20:27,400 --> 01:20:31,000 ♪ It's some spring formal dance ♪ 1415 01:20:31,000 --> 01:20:35,266 ♪ It's May 1st, and it's cheese ♪ 1416 01:20:35,266 --> 01:20:38,766 ♪ But it's fun and it's free ♪ 1417 01:20:38,766 --> 01:20:41,300 -♪ I don't do dances ♪ 1418 01:20:41,300 --> 01:20:47,266 -♪ Do this dance with me ♪ 1419 01:20:47,266 --> 01:20:54,300 -♪ Goodbye, Henry ♪ 1420 01:20:54,300 --> 01:20:57,133 -Natalie... Natalie, wait up. Hey... 1421 01:20:57,133 --> 01:21:00,400 -This much loss is rare, but it has been reported. 1422 01:21:00,400 --> 01:21:02,200 It may be partly psychogenic. 1423 01:21:02,200 --> 01:21:04,033 At times like this, the mind tends to 1424 01:21:04,033 --> 01:21:05,033 repress troubling memories. 1425 01:21:05,033 --> 01:21:06,766 But they're still there, somewhere. 1426 01:21:06,766 --> 01:21:08,500 They tend to return in fits and starts. 1427 01:21:08,500 --> 01:21:10,200 It's been two weeks. 1428 01:21:10,200 --> 01:21:13,100 -♪ A little loss of memory is normal ♪ 1429 01:21:13,100 --> 01:21:15,600 ♪ And helpful in forgetting all her fears ♪ 1430 01:21:15,600 --> 01:21:19,666 -♪ I couldn't give a flying fig what's normal ♪ 1431 01:21:19,666 --> 01:21:22,166 ♪ We haven't had a "normal" day in years ♪ 1432 01:21:22,166 --> 01:21:25,666 -♪ Diana, are things becoming clearer with the treatment? ♪ 1433 01:21:25,666 --> 01:21:27,100 -Yes. 1434 01:21:27,100 --> 01:21:28,633 -♪ Is life less cloudy than it was before? ♪ 1435 01:21:28,633 --> 01:21:30,166 -Well, yes. 1436 01:21:30,166 --> 01:21:32,266 ♪ Do you still feel your head is filled with concrete? ♪ 1437 01:21:32,266 --> 01:21:33,800 -No. 1438 01:21:35,533 --> 01:21:38,833 ♪ And you're not a scary rock star anymore ♪ 1439 01:21:40,200 --> 01:21:43,266 Okay, great. [ Laughs ] 1440 01:21:43,266 --> 01:21:45,633 -What about her memory? 1441 01:21:45,633 --> 01:21:48,900 -♪ The memories are there, somewhere ♪ 1442 01:21:48,900 --> 01:21:51,800 ♪ Find some pictures you can share ♪ 1443 01:21:51,800 --> 01:21:57,666 ♪ Keepsakes of the life that's there behind her ♪ 1444 01:21:57,666 --> 01:22:00,666 -Do I bring up the subject of -- -Yes. 1445 01:22:00,666 --> 01:22:03,666 ♪ But keep it light at first, that's best ♪ 1446 01:22:03,666 --> 01:22:06,533 ♪ Careful that she's not distressed ♪ 1447 01:22:06,533 --> 01:22:09,166 ♪ When the time is right, tell the rest ♪ 1448 01:22:09,166 --> 01:22:12,533 ♪ Remind her ♪ 1449 01:22:12,533 --> 01:22:16,100 ♪ You'll find her ♪ 1450 01:22:16,100 --> 01:22:20,666 ♪♪ 1451 01:22:20,666 --> 01:22:23,200 ♪ So, let's start with something small ♪ 1452 01:22:23,200 --> 01:22:26,666 ♪ Something personal and pretty ♪ 1453 01:22:26,666 --> 01:22:29,633 ♪ I bet you'll know these shiny things ♪ 1454 01:22:30,466 --> 01:22:33,300 -Um...they must be tacky trinkets 1455 01:22:33,300 --> 01:22:35,333 from, I guess, Atlantic City? 1456 01:22:35,333 --> 01:22:40,000 -♪ No. Actually, Di, they're our wedding rings ♪ 1457 01:22:40,000 --> 01:22:41,500 -It's going well. 1458 01:22:41,500 --> 01:22:43,900 -♪ Here's a flower from our wedding ♪ 1459 01:22:43,900 --> 01:22:46,866 ♪ It was such a sight to see ♪ 1460 01:22:46,866 --> 01:22:50,100 ♪ With the ceremony everything we'd hoped ♪ 1461 01:22:50,100 --> 01:22:51,433 -Uh, Dad? 1462 01:22:51,433 --> 01:22:54,100 -♪ Well, that's how I remember it ♪ 1463 01:22:54,100 --> 01:22:56,266 ♪ So, that's how it'll be ♪ 1464 01:22:56,266 --> 01:23:00,666 -♪ It was raining, it was Portland, you eloped ♪ 1465 01:23:00,666 --> 01:23:02,766 I mean, Portland? 1466 01:23:02,766 --> 01:23:05,666 -♪ It's an open book to write here ♪ 1467 01:23:05,666 --> 01:23:08,100 ♪ It's a life we can restore ♪ 1468 01:23:08,100 --> 01:23:13,500 ♪ We can get back what we had and maybe more ♪ 1469 01:23:13,500 --> 01:23:17,366 ♪ Maybe get us back to better than before ♪ 1470 01:23:19,333 --> 01:23:23,366 -Uh, you're missing a few pictures here, Dad. 1471 01:23:23,366 --> 01:23:24,833 Didn't the doctor say -- 1472 01:23:24,833 --> 01:23:25,933 -The doctor said at the right time. 1473 01:23:25,933 --> 01:23:27,666 -Oh. Well, then... 1474 01:23:27,666 --> 01:23:30,600 -♪ Here's the year we drove the West ♪ 1475 01:23:30,600 --> 01:23:33,966 ♪ We hit the highway in the Honda ♪ 1476 01:23:33,966 --> 01:23:37,233 ♪ And I took pictures everywhere we went ♪ 1477 01:23:38,666 --> 01:23:42,133 ♪ We saw the Painted Desert, the Grand Canyon, 1478 01:23:42,133 --> 01:23:43,800 and Aunt Rhonda ♪ 1479 01:23:43,800 --> 01:23:47,200 ♪ And Nat learned what her middle finger meant ♪ 1480 01:23:48,333 --> 01:23:50,666 ♪ Here's the first house that we owned ♪ 1481 01:23:50,666 --> 01:23:53,566 ♪ On Walton Way, we loved that place ♪ 1482 01:23:53,566 --> 01:23:57,233 ♪ Then we built this one on land that we both chose ♪ 1483 01:23:58,633 --> 01:24:04,033 ♪ And here's a pic of all of us with smiles on every face ♪ 1484 01:24:04,033 --> 01:24:07,866 ♪ And the photoshopping hardly even shows ♪ 1485 01:24:09,400 --> 01:24:14,666 -♪ We're standing by a lake, with all these ducks ♪ 1486 01:24:14,666 --> 01:24:17,500 ♪ And who's this little, chubby girl? ♪ 1487 01:24:17,500 --> 01:24:19,633 -♪ That's Natalie ♪ -♪ This stinks ♪ 1488 01:24:19,633 --> 01:24:22,233 Hey, Nat! Nat! 1489 01:24:22,233 --> 01:24:24,700 ♪ Gonna get us back to normal ♪ 1490 01:24:24,700 --> 01:24:27,200 ♪ Gonna get us back to good ♪ 1491 01:24:27,200 --> 01:24:30,800 ♪ Gonna get back what we had and maybe more ♪ 1492 01:24:32,533 --> 01:24:35,000 ♪ We'll remember all the good times 1493 01:24:35,000 --> 01:24:37,533 and forget the things we should 1494 01:24:37,533 --> 01:24:41,033 ♪ Gonna get us back to better than before ♪ 1495 01:24:42,500 --> 01:24:46,133 ♪ We can get things back to better than before ♪ 1496 01:24:46,133 --> 01:24:48,233 -Alright. 1497 01:24:48,233 --> 01:24:49,800 Fine. 1498 01:24:51,066 --> 01:24:54,066 ♪ Here's the headline in the paper ♪ 1499 01:24:54,066 --> 01:24:56,833 ♪ When you freaked out at the market ♪ 1500 01:24:56,833 --> 01:25:00,566 ♪ Here's the house on Walton Way after the fire ♪ 1501 01:25:00,566 --> 01:25:01,866 -Natalie! 1502 01:25:01,866 --> 01:25:04,333 -♪ Here's the damage to the Honda ♪ 1503 01:25:04,333 --> 01:25:07,133 ♪ When you showed me how to park it ♪ 1504 01:25:07,133 --> 01:25:11,333 -♪ Did we crush somebody's cat beneath the tire? ♪ 1505 01:25:11,333 --> 01:25:14,833 -Yes. Ours. 1506 01:25:16,133 --> 01:25:18,766 ♪ Here's Dad at my recital ♪ 1507 01:25:18,766 --> 01:25:21,866 ♪ And we're wondering where you are ♪ 1508 01:25:21,866 --> 01:25:25,600 -♪ I remember this, I made it to the school ♪ 1509 01:25:25,600 --> 01:25:27,533 -Wait, you remember? 1510 01:25:27,533 --> 01:25:29,700 ♪ It was the year of too much lithium ♪ 1511 01:25:29,700 --> 01:25:32,033 ♪ I hid out in the car ♪ -Yes. 1512 01:25:32,033 --> 01:25:34,700 -♪ And your swim meet just last year ♪ 1513 01:25:34,700 --> 01:25:37,900 ♪ I'm in the pool ♪ -So you are. 1514 01:25:37,900 --> 01:25:39,600 ♪ You're getting it! ♪ 1515 01:25:39,600 --> 01:25:43,033 ♪ You've got it, Di, hooray! ♪ 1516 01:25:43,033 --> 01:25:45,966 -♪ Your life has kind of stunk, I think ♪ 1517 01:25:45,966 --> 01:25:47,966 -♪ You've got it, yay, hooray ♪ 1518 01:25:47,966 --> 01:25:50,966 -♪ Hooray! ♪ -♪ Hooray! ♪ 1519 01:25:50,966 --> 01:25:53,233 -♪ Gonna get back what I lost there ♪ 1520 01:25:53,233 --> 01:25:55,833 ♪ Gonna find out who I was ♪ 1521 01:25:55,833 --> 01:26:00,833 ♪ Gonna open up the gates and let it pour ♪ 1522 01:26:00,833 --> 01:26:03,433 ♪ And if memory makes things better, 1523 01:26:03,433 --> 01:26:05,766 well, memory always does ♪ 1524 01:26:05,766 --> 01:26:10,866 ♪ Gonna get us back to better than before ♪ 1525 01:26:10,866 --> 01:26:13,500 -♪ Make everything much better than before ♪ 1526 01:26:13,500 --> 01:26:15,200 -♪ Won't anything be better than before? ♪ 1527 01:26:15,200 --> 01:26:16,533 -♪ Better than before ♪ 1528 01:26:16,533 --> 01:26:17,700 -♪ I guess it must be better than before ♪ 1529 01:26:17,700 --> 01:26:20,833 -♪ Better than before ♪ 1530 01:26:20,833 --> 01:26:28,400 ♪ Better than before ♪ 1531 01:26:28,400 --> 01:26:32,600 ♪♪ 1532 01:26:32,600 --> 01:26:34,600 -♪ They've managed to get rid of me, 1533 01:26:34,600 --> 01:26:36,700 return me to the grave ♪ 1534 01:26:36,700 --> 01:26:40,866 ♪ ECT, electric chair, we shock who we can't save ♪ 1535 01:26:40,866 --> 01:26:43,066 ♪ They've cleared you of my memory, 1536 01:26:43,066 --> 01:26:44,966 and many more, as well ♪ 1537 01:26:44,966 --> 01:26:48,933 ♪ You may have wanted some of them, but who can ever tell? ♪ 1538 01:26:48,933 --> 01:26:51,333 ♪ Your brainwaves are more regular, 1539 01:26:51,333 --> 01:26:53,500 the chemistry more pure ♪ 1540 01:26:53,500 --> 01:26:57,733 ♪ The headaches and the nausea will pass, and you'll endure ♪ 1541 01:26:57,733 --> 01:27:00,566 ♪ Your son is gone forever, though, 1542 01:27:00,566 --> 01:27:04,666 of that the doctor's sure ♪ 1543 01:27:05,433 --> 01:27:11,000 ♪ The memories will wane ♪ 1544 01:27:11,000 --> 01:27:16,466 ♪ The aftershocks remain ♪ 1545 01:27:17,833 --> 01:27:21,000 ♪ You wonder which is worse ♪ 1546 01:27:21,000 --> 01:27:28,900 ♪ The symptom or the cure ♪ 1547 01:27:28,900 --> 01:27:33,000 -Di, honey, you've been at this for days. 1548 01:27:33,000 --> 01:27:37,033 -Something is missing, Dan. It's like it's tugging at me. 1549 01:27:37,033 --> 01:27:38,400 I can almost see it. -Come to bed. 1550 01:27:38,400 --> 01:27:42,700 If -- If the memories are meant to come back, they will. 1551 01:27:47,366 --> 01:27:50,166 -Oh. Hi, Ms. Goodman. 1552 01:27:51,366 --> 01:27:55,666 I just needed to talk to Natalie about some homework. 1553 01:27:55,666 --> 01:27:57,766 I know it's late. Um... 1554 01:27:57,766 --> 01:27:59,600 She's not been answering her phone, and I thought -- 1555 01:27:59,600 --> 01:28:01,066 Is everything okay? 1556 01:28:01,066 --> 01:28:04,466 -Henry? -Yes. 1557 01:28:05,766 --> 01:28:08,700 -God, you remind me of someone. 1558 01:28:08,700 --> 01:28:10,566 How old are you? 1559 01:28:10,566 --> 01:28:12,666 -Uh, 17. 1560 01:28:12,666 --> 01:28:14,566 Why? 1561 01:28:14,566 --> 01:28:16,533 -I don't know. 1562 01:28:17,400 --> 01:28:19,833 Uh, Natalie's in her room. -Thank you. 1563 01:28:19,833 --> 01:28:23,566 ♪♪ 1564 01:28:23,566 --> 01:28:25,866 -♪ They've managed to get rid of me, 1565 01:28:25,866 --> 01:28:27,966 I'm gone without a trace ♪ 1566 01:28:27,966 --> 01:28:30,100 ♪ But sear the soul and leave a scar 1567 01:28:30,100 --> 01:28:32,100 no treatment can erase ♪ 1568 01:28:32,100 --> 01:28:35,766 ♪ They cut away the cancer but forgot to fill the hole ♪ 1569 01:28:35,766 --> 01:28:38,200 ♪ They moved me from your memory, 1570 01:28:38,200 --> 01:28:40,333 I'm still there in your soul ♪ 1571 01:28:40,333 --> 01:28:42,366 ♪ Your life goes back to normal now 1572 01:28:42,366 --> 01:28:44,500 or so they all believe ♪ 1573 01:28:44,500 --> 01:28:46,733 ♪ Your heart is in your chest again, 1574 01:28:46,733 --> 01:28:48,800 not hanging from your sleeve ♪ 1575 01:28:48,800 --> 01:28:51,233 ♪ They've driven out the demons 1576 01:28:51,233 --> 01:28:56,400 and they've earned you this reprieve ♪ 1577 01:28:56,400 --> 01:29:00,733 ♪ The memories are gone ♪ 1578 01:29:03,200 --> 01:29:08,433 ♪ The aftershocks live on ♪ 1579 01:29:10,433 --> 01:29:14,333 ♪ But with nothing to remember ♪ 1580 01:29:14,333 --> 01:29:23,833 ♪ Is there nothing left to grieve? ♪ 1581 01:29:23,833 --> 01:29:29,600 -♪ With nothing to remember ♪ 1582 01:29:29,600 --> 01:29:32,033 ♪♪ 1583 01:29:32,033 --> 01:29:35,466 -♪ Hey ♪ -♪ Hey ♪ 1584 01:29:35,466 --> 01:29:39,300 -♪ So, tomorrow's the dance ♪ 1585 01:29:39,300 --> 01:29:42,666 ♪ It's annoying, I know ♪ 1586 01:29:42,666 --> 01:29:44,966 ♪ But let's go ♪ 1587 01:29:44,966 --> 01:29:46,433 -♪ Not a chance ♪ 1588 01:29:46,433 --> 01:29:48,666 -♪ Let me know you again ♪ 1589 01:29:48,666 --> 01:29:50,900 -♪ Not right now ♪ -♪ Okay, when? ♪ 1590 01:29:50,900 --> 01:29:54,233 ♪ Say "wait," and I'll wait ♪ -♪ It's already too late ♪ 1591 01:29:54,233 --> 01:29:56,233 -♪ There's no way it's too late ♪ 1592 01:29:56,233 --> 01:29:57,833 -♪ There's no way ♪ -♪ Hey ♪ 1593 01:29:57,833 --> 01:30:00,766 -♪ I stayed by your side ♪ -♪ Will you listen? ♪ 1594 01:30:00,766 --> 01:30:05,200 -♪ Just shut up and listen ♪ -♪ Why do I get denied? ♪ 1595 01:30:05,200 --> 01:30:08,566 -♪ You remind me of me ♪ 1596 01:30:08,566 --> 01:30:13,666 ♪ And how messed up I can be ♪ 1597 01:30:15,733 --> 01:30:17,566 ♪ Okay ♪ 1598 01:30:17,566 --> 01:30:19,100 ♪ Hey ♪ 1599 01:30:19,100 --> 01:30:22,800 ♪ Let's start over, clean slate ♪ 1600 01:30:22,800 --> 01:30:25,500 ♪ I'll come by here at eight ♪ 1601 01:30:26,666 --> 01:30:30,333 ♪ If you show, then we'll go ♪ 1602 01:30:30,333 --> 01:30:33,933 ♪ And if you don't, well, we'll see ♪ 1603 01:30:33,933 --> 01:30:36,600 -♪ You just don't give up ♪ 1604 01:30:36,600 --> 01:30:43,166 -♪ So don't give up on me ♪ 1605 01:30:44,633 --> 01:30:53,700 -♪ Goodbye, Henry ♪ 1606 01:30:53,700 --> 01:30:57,500 ♪♪ 1607 01:30:57,500 --> 01:30:59,900 -♪ It's been four weeks since the treatment, 1608 01:30:59,900 --> 01:31:02,200 and my mind is still a mess ♪ 1609 01:31:02,200 --> 01:31:04,333 ♪ And what's left to be remembered, 1610 01:31:04,333 --> 01:31:06,733 well, it's anybody's guess ♪ 1611 01:31:06,733 --> 01:31:09,066 ♪ 'Cause my past is like the weather ♪ 1612 01:31:09,066 --> 01:31:11,200 ♪ It will come and it will go ♪ 1613 01:31:11,200 --> 01:31:15,966 ♪ I don't know, even know, what it is that I don't know ♪ 1614 01:31:15,966 --> 01:31:20,266 ♪ I'm some Christopher Columbus, sailing out into my mind ♪ 1615 01:31:20,266 --> 01:31:24,800 ♪ With no map of where I'm going or of what I've left behind ♪ 1616 01:31:24,800 --> 01:31:26,966 ♪ I don't know ♪ 1617 01:31:26,966 --> 01:31:29,200 ♪ The things I don't know ♪ 1618 01:31:29,200 --> 01:31:33,500 ♪ I'm sure something's missing, and I wish it would show ♪ 1619 01:31:33,500 --> 01:31:36,300 ♪ I don't know ♪ 1620 01:31:36,300 --> 01:31:39,433 ♪ You say take it slow, and I do ♪ 1621 01:31:39,433 --> 01:31:47,566 ♪ Although, how I do, I don't know ♪ 1622 01:31:47,566 --> 01:31:49,733 -♪ Are you talking with your husband? ♪ 1623 01:31:49,733 --> 01:31:51,933 -♪ Well, he hasn't much to say ♪ 1624 01:31:51,933 --> 01:31:54,100 -♪ Is it helping you remember? ♪ 1625 01:31:54,100 --> 01:31:56,433 -♪ I remember that's his way ♪ 1626 01:31:56,433 --> 01:32:00,766 -♪ Does the puzzle come together piece by piece and row by row? ♪ 1627 01:32:00,766 --> 01:32:05,433 -♪ I don't know, I don't know where the stupid pieces go ♪ 1628 01:32:05,433 --> 01:32:08,100 ♪ 'Cause I don't know how this started ♪ 1629 01:32:08,100 --> 01:32:10,200 ♪ So I won't know when it's done ♪ 1630 01:32:10,200 --> 01:32:12,266 -♪ Have you talked of your depression, 1631 01:32:12,266 --> 01:32:14,800 your delusions, and your son? ♪ 1632 01:32:16,400 --> 01:32:17,600 My what? 1633 01:32:20,066 --> 01:32:22,233 -Your husband didn't... 1634 01:32:22,233 --> 01:32:24,966 Mm! I think you two should talk more. 1635 01:32:26,066 --> 01:32:28,800 -We should talk more? That's it? 1636 01:32:28,800 --> 01:32:31,166 I don't even remember marrying this man! 1637 01:32:31,166 --> 01:32:33,166 It's not like I'm some sexually frustrated soccer mom. 1638 01:32:33,166 --> 01:32:35,766 -Interestingly, the underlying challenges are similar, 1639 01:32:35,766 --> 01:32:38,266 but, uh... 1640 01:32:38,266 --> 01:32:39,766 I'll see you next week. -But Doctor, I -- 1641 01:32:39,766 --> 01:32:42,066 -Next week. 1642 01:32:43,533 --> 01:33:07,733 ♪♪ 1643 01:33:07,733 --> 01:33:09,766 -[ Sighs ] 1644 01:33:09,766 --> 01:33:27,133 ♪♪ 1645 01:33:36,166 --> 01:33:44,400 ♪♪ 1646 01:33:44,400 --> 01:33:46,400 -[ Humming ] 1647 01:33:46,400 --> 01:34:03,733 ♪♪ 1648 01:34:03,733 --> 01:34:05,233 -What are you doing? 1649 01:34:06,866 --> 01:34:10,433 -What is this? -Hey, where'd you get that? 1650 01:34:10,433 --> 01:34:12,433 Um, it's, uh... 1651 01:34:13,333 --> 01:34:14,933 It's nothing. It's, uh... 1652 01:34:14,933 --> 01:34:16,800 It's just an old music box. 1653 01:34:21,900 --> 01:34:24,333 -We used to play it for the baby. 1654 01:34:26,800 --> 01:34:29,366 Sometimes, it helped him sleep. 1655 01:34:30,466 --> 01:34:32,733 -Diana... -Him! 1656 01:34:34,766 --> 01:34:37,400 We did have a boy. 1657 01:34:37,400 --> 01:34:40,166 -Diana, you shouldn't. 1658 01:34:40,166 --> 01:34:44,066 -♪ We were still living downtown ♪ 1659 01:34:44,066 --> 01:34:45,633 -It's not a good idea. 1660 01:34:45,633 --> 01:34:50,900 -♪ My black coat thrown over my blue nightgown ♪ 1661 01:34:50,900 --> 01:34:53,766 ♪ You drove too fast ♪ 1662 01:34:53,766 --> 01:34:58,033 ♪ The lights of the city flew past ♪ 1663 01:34:59,133 --> 01:35:01,200 -Please don't. 1664 01:35:01,200 --> 01:35:05,166 -♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ 1665 01:35:05,166 --> 01:35:09,666 ♪ Outside, the morning was cool and wet ♪ 1666 01:35:09,666 --> 01:35:12,033 ♪ He had such chills ♪ 1667 01:35:12,033 --> 01:35:15,766 ♪ But still, he lay there so still ♪ 1668 01:35:17,633 --> 01:35:20,633 ♪ And just eight months old ♪ 1669 01:35:23,900 --> 01:35:27,300 ♪ So cold ♪ 1670 01:35:30,433 --> 01:35:33,033 ♪ We ran him inside ♪ 1671 01:35:34,566 --> 01:35:38,933 ♪ Lost, worrying, wondering ♪ 1672 01:35:40,600 --> 01:35:46,633 ♪ That hospital room ♪ 1673 01:35:46,633 --> 01:35:52,866 ♪ That gloom ♪ 1674 01:35:52,866 --> 01:35:55,466 ♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ 1675 01:35:55,466 --> 01:35:57,400 -♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ 1676 01:35:57,400 --> 01:35:58,800 -♪ Screaming at doctors, alarmed, upset ♪ 1677 01:35:58,800 --> 01:36:01,833 -♪ God, I was so upset ♪ 1678 01:36:01,833 --> 01:36:03,933 -♪ They said to wait ♪ -♪ Diana, don't ♪ 1679 01:36:03,933 --> 01:36:05,366 -♪ They never said we were too late ♪ 1680 01:36:05,366 --> 01:36:09,033 -♪ You think this will help, but it won't ♪ 1681 01:36:09,033 --> 01:36:13,600 -♪ But I was a child ♪ -♪ So many years ago ♪ 1682 01:36:13,600 --> 01:36:17,466 -♪ Raising a child ♪ -♪ So much we could not know ♪ 1683 01:36:17,466 --> 01:36:20,566 -♪ Those weeks full of joy ♪ 1684 01:36:20,566 --> 01:36:24,466 ♪ Then a moment of dread ♪ 1685 01:36:26,033 --> 01:36:28,933 ♪ Someone simply said ♪ 1686 01:36:31,200 --> 01:36:36,466 ♪ "Your child is..." ♪ 1687 01:36:36,466 --> 01:36:41,366 -♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ -♪ How could I ever forget? ♪ 1688 01:36:41,366 --> 01:36:46,600 -♪ This was the moment my life was set ♪ 1689 01:36:46,600 --> 01:36:50,633 ♪ The day that I lost you ♪ 1690 01:36:52,200 --> 01:36:59,133 ♪ It's clear as the day we met ♪ 1691 01:37:01,433 --> 01:37:08,033 ♪ How could I ever 1692 01:37:08,033 --> 01:37:13,733 forget? ♪ 1693 01:37:14,800 --> 01:37:18,100 -Why would you want to remember the things that hurt you? 1694 01:37:20,300 --> 01:37:23,266 -I want to remember everything, Dan. 1695 01:37:29,500 --> 01:37:31,200 How did he die? 1696 01:37:33,300 --> 01:37:34,633 -He was sick. 1697 01:37:34,633 --> 01:37:37,233 -With what? 1698 01:37:37,233 --> 01:37:39,333 Why wasn't he treated? What was wrong? 1699 01:37:41,400 --> 01:37:45,100 -♪ Something the doctors all missed ♪ 1700 01:37:46,200 --> 01:37:50,800 ♪ The clinic, the E.R., each specialist ♪ 1701 01:37:50,800 --> 01:37:53,700 ♪ They said, "Babies cry ♪ 1702 01:37:53,700 --> 01:37:57,066 ♪ Allergies, gas, who knows why?" 1703 01:37:58,700 --> 01:38:02,933 ♪ And I was a child ♪ 1704 01:38:04,066 --> 01:38:07,966 ♪ Raising a child ♪ 1705 01:38:11,066 --> 01:38:12,700 ♪ We stayed up all night ♪ 1706 01:38:14,833 --> 01:38:17,700 ♪ Most nights, you slept at his side ♪ 1707 01:38:17,700 --> 01:38:21,066 -Oh, God. 1708 01:38:21,066 --> 01:38:23,866 -♪ But still, he just cried ♪ 1709 01:38:26,766 --> 01:38:29,800 ♪ And cried ♪ 1710 01:38:31,933 --> 01:38:35,466 -He was a baby when he died, but I remember him older. 1711 01:38:37,100 --> 01:38:39,466 -No, he was a baby. Um... 1712 01:38:40,200 --> 01:38:41,733 We should call Dr. Madden. 1713 01:38:41,733 --> 01:38:43,400 -Why would we call Dr. Madden? 1714 01:38:43,400 --> 01:38:45,700 I'm just -- I'm trying to make sense of this. 1715 01:38:46,766 --> 01:38:49,566 Wait. What was his name? 1716 01:38:51,133 --> 01:38:52,866 I don't remember you ever saying his name. 1717 01:38:52,866 --> 01:38:56,200 Why is that? -Diana, um... 1718 01:38:56,200 --> 01:38:59,000 -What was his name? Tell me. 1719 01:38:59,000 --> 01:39:01,400 -♪ It's gonna be fine, it's gonna be fine ♪ 1720 01:39:01,400 --> 01:39:02,533 ♪ Gonna go back to the doctor 1721 01:39:02,533 --> 01:39:03,533 'cause we caught it just in time ♪ 1722 01:39:03,533 --> 01:39:04,733 -His name! 1723 01:39:04,733 --> 01:39:06,366 ♪ We'll take the pills and pay the bills, 1724 01:39:06,366 --> 01:39:07,966 we'll do more ECT ♪ -Our son. 1725 01:39:07,966 --> 01:39:09,166 -♪ It's gonna be good, you'll see ♪ 1726 01:39:09,166 --> 01:39:10,433 -What was his name? 1727 01:39:10,433 --> 01:39:11,900 -♪ It's gonna be good, you'll see ♪ 1728 01:39:11,900 --> 01:39:13,500 -What was his name?! 1729 01:39:13,500 --> 01:39:14,733 -♪ It's gonna be good... ♪ 1730 01:39:14,733 --> 01:39:16,233 -♪ What was his name, what was his name, 1731 01:39:16,233 --> 01:39:17,633 what was his, what was his, what was his, what was his ♪ 1732 01:39:17,633 --> 01:39:19,200 ♪ Name, name, name, name, name, name, name, name ♪ 1733 01:39:19,200 --> 01:39:21,066 ♪ What was his name, what was his name? ♪ 1734 01:39:21,066 --> 01:39:22,066 -No! 1735 01:39:22,066 --> 01:39:23,700 -Dad! -Natalie! 1736 01:39:23,700 --> 01:39:25,700 -[ Crying ] 1737 01:39:48,766 --> 01:39:50,466 ♪ Why stay? ♪ 1738 01:39:52,133 --> 01:39:53,900 ♪ Why stay? ♪ 1739 01:39:55,166 --> 01:39:58,100 ♪ So steadfast and stolid ♪ 1740 01:39:58,100 --> 01:40:00,833 ♪ And stoic and solid ♪ 1741 01:40:00,833 --> 01:40:04,633 ♪ For day after every day ♪ 1742 01:40:04,633 --> 01:40:06,633 ♪ Why stay? ♪ 1743 01:40:07,166 --> 01:40:09,433 ♪ Why stay? ♪ 1744 01:40:09,433 --> 01:40:12,433 ♪ Why not simply give in and get on with livin' ♪ 1745 01:40:12,433 --> 01:40:14,733 ♪ 'Cause everyone knows you tried ♪ 1746 01:40:14,733 --> 01:40:19,266 ♪ But somehow, something died on the way ♪ 1747 01:40:19,266 --> 01:40:21,066 ♪ So tell me why you stay ♪ 1748 01:40:21,066 --> 01:40:23,333 -♪ Why stay, why stay? ♪ 1749 01:40:23,333 --> 01:40:25,466 ♪ Enduring and coping and hurting and hoping 1750 01:40:25,466 --> 01:40:27,666 for day after fricking day ♪ 1751 01:40:27,666 --> 01:40:30,100 ♪ Why stay, why stay? ♪ 1752 01:40:30,100 --> 01:40:32,266 ♪ Why not simply end it, we'd all comprehend it ♪ 1753 01:40:32,266 --> 01:40:34,400 ♪ And most of the world would say, 1754 01:40:34,400 --> 01:40:36,933 "He's better off that way ♪ 1755 01:40:36,933 --> 01:40:39,633 ♪ To be free ♪ 1756 01:40:39,633 --> 01:40:42,866 ♪ And maybe so is she" ♪ 1757 01:40:44,366 --> 01:40:48,366 -♪ A promise, a boy says forever ♪ 1758 01:40:48,366 --> 01:40:52,466 ♪ A boy says, "Whatever may come, we'll come through ♪ 1759 01:40:52,466 --> 01:40:53,966 ♪ And who can know how, 1760 01:40:53,966 --> 01:40:57,300 when all I know now to be true ♪ 1761 01:40:57,300 --> 01:41:02,600 ♪ Is this promise that I made to you ♪ 1762 01:41:03,600 --> 01:41:06,266 -♪ A question, a boy wonders whether ♪ 1763 01:41:06,266 --> 01:41:07,666 -♪ A boy wonders, "Should I stay?" ♪ 1764 01:41:07,666 --> 01:41:11,000 -♪ The two stay together the way that they stay ♪ 1765 01:41:11,000 --> 01:41:13,200 ♪ For year after year ♪ 1766 01:41:13,200 --> 01:41:15,000 ♪ For love or from fear ♪ 1767 01:41:15,000 --> 01:41:20,766 ♪ Either way, that's the promise that I made that day ♪ 1768 01:41:20,766 --> 01:41:25,566 ♪ Here's what I say to the girl who was burning so brightly ♪ 1769 01:41:25,566 --> 01:41:30,033 ♪ Like the light from Orion above ♪ 1770 01:41:30,033 --> 01:41:33,866 -♪ And still, I will search for her nightly ♪ 1771 01:41:33,866 --> 01:41:37,300 ♪ If you see her, please send her my love ♪ 1772 01:41:37,300 --> 01:41:40,200 ♪ And the boy was a boy for all seasons ♪ 1773 01:41:40,200 --> 01:41:41,500 -♪ The boy is long-lost ♪ 1774 01:41:41,500 --> 01:41:44,366 -♪ That boy is long-lost to me now ♪ 1775 01:41:44,366 --> 01:41:45,633 -♪ So lost ♪ 1776 01:41:45,633 --> 01:41:49,333 -♪ The man has forgotten his reasons ♪ 1777 01:41:49,333 --> 01:41:52,800 -♪ The man still remembers his vow ♪ 1778 01:41:53,733 --> 01:41:57,733 ♪ A promise, a man says "Forever" ♪ 1779 01:41:57,733 --> 01:42:02,133 ♪ A man says, "I'll never regret or let you" ♪ 1780 01:42:02,133 --> 01:42:04,966 ♪ The promise that I made to stay ♪ 1781 01:42:04,966 --> 01:42:09,966 And I stayed true ♪ 1782 01:42:09,966 --> 01:42:13,800 ♪ Knowing one day we'd remember that joy ♪ 1783 01:42:13,800 --> 01:42:18,366 ♪ You'd remember that girl, I'd remember that boy ♪ 1784 01:42:18,366 --> 01:42:21,300 ♪ Till we do, the promise I made ♪ 1785 01:42:21,300 --> 01:42:24,866 ♪ I'll make it brand-new ♪ 1786 01:42:24,866 --> 01:42:31,300 ♪ The promise that I made 1787 01:42:31,300 --> 01:42:38,266 to you ♪ 1788 01:42:38,266 --> 01:42:43,400 -♪ I am more than memory ♪ 1789 01:42:43,400 --> 01:42:46,466 ♪ I am what might be ♪ 1790 01:42:46,466 --> 01:42:49,100 ♪ I am mystery ♪ 1791 01:42:50,600 --> 01:42:53,400 ♪ Come closer ♪ 1792 01:42:53,400 --> 01:42:55,700 -Dan. 1793 01:42:55,700 --> 01:42:59,500 -♪ Come closer ♪ 1794 01:42:59,500 --> 01:43:02,966 -Diana, there's nothing there. 1795 01:43:02,966 --> 01:43:06,766 -♪ I'm old as time and forever young ♪ 1796 01:43:06,766 --> 01:43:10,500 ♪ I am every song that will stay unsung ♪ 1797 01:43:10,500 --> 01:43:12,600 ♪ I'll find you ♪ -Oh, no. 1798 01:43:12,600 --> 01:43:15,400 -You're kidding! -♪ Remind you ♪ 1799 01:43:15,400 --> 01:43:17,966 -Natalie! -Diana, come back here! 1800 01:43:17,966 --> 01:43:23,533 -♪ Until you name me, you can't tame me ♪ 1801 01:43:23,533 --> 01:43:29,266 ♪ This is one old game that I can play so well ♪ 1802 01:43:29,266 --> 01:43:32,766 ♪ I'm alive, I'm alive, I am so alive ♪ 1803 01:43:32,766 --> 01:43:35,333 ♪ And the medicine failed, and the doctors lied ♪ 1804 01:43:35,333 --> 01:43:38,700 ♪ I'm alive, I'm alive, I am death defied ♪ 1805 01:43:38,700 --> 01:43:41,200 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 1806 01:43:41,200 --> 01:43:44,333 ♪ So alive ♪ 1807 01:43:44,333 --> 01:43:46,100 ♪ I'm alive ♪ 1808 01:43:46,100 --> 01:43:47,266 -I can't go to your dance. 1809 01:43:47,266 --> 01:43:49,000 I have to take my mom to the doctor. 1810 01:43:49,000 --> 01:43:50,466 -I'll drive. -No. 1811 01:43:50,466 --> 01:43:52,133 -♪ I'm alive ♪ 1812 01:43:52,133 --> 01:43:54,033 -Natalie, let me help you. -No, you can't. 1813 01:43:54,033 --> 01:43:56,333 -Diana! -Just go. 1814 01:43:56,333 --> 01:43:59,000 -♪ I'm alive ♪ 1815 01:43:59,000 --> 01:44:00,833 -Look, I'll try to come later, okay? 1816 01:44:00,833 --> 01:44:02,200 -Okay, I'll wait for you there. 1817 01:44:02,200 --> 01:44:10,200 -♪ I'm alive ♪ 1818 01:44:11,500 --> 01:44:14,500 -♪ They told me that the wiring was somehow all misfiring 1819 01:44:14,500 --> 01:44:16,900 and screwing up the signals in my brain ♪ 1820 01:44:16,900 --> 01:44:19,133 ♪ And then they told me chemistry, the juice, 1821 01:44:19,133 --> 01:44:22,400 and not the circuitry was mixing up and making me insane ♪ 1822 01:44:22,400 --> 01:44:25,366 ♪ What happens when the burn has healed, 1823 01:44:25,366 --> 01:44:27,866 but the skin has not regrown? 1824 01:44:27,866 --> 01:44:32,000 ♪ What happens when the cast at last comes off 1825 01:44:32,000 --> 01:44:38,033 and then you find the break was always in another bone? ♪ 1826 01:44:38,033 --> 01:44:40,100 -Relapse is very common, Diana. 1827 01:44:40,100 --> 01:44:42,000 It's upsetting that the delusional episodes 1828 01:44:42,000 --> 01:44:45,533 have returned, but not entirely unexpected. 1829 01:44:47,066 --> 01:44:49,366 -♪ They tried a million meds and they strapped me to their beds 1830 01:44:49,366 --> 01:44:52,066 and they shrugged and told me, "That's the way it goes" ♪ 1831 01:44:52,066 --> 01:44:55,000 ♪ When, finally, you hit it, I asked you just what did it, 1832 01:44:55,000 --> 01:44:57,400 you shrugged and said that no one really knows ♪ 1833 01:44:57,400 --> 01:45:02,966 ♪ What happens if the medicine wasn't really in control? ♪ 1834 01:45:02,966 --> 01:45:06,600 ♪ What happens if the cut, the burn, the break 1835 01:45:06,600 --> 01:45:14,566 was never in my brain or in my blood, but in my soul? ♪ 1836 01:45:17,166 --> 01:45:24,100 ♪ What happens if the cut, the burn, the break 1837 01:45:24,100 --> 01:45:28,633 was never in my brain 1838 01:45:28,633 --> 01:45:35,233 or in my blood, but in my soul? ♪ 1839 01:45:39,566 --> 01:45:43,600 -♪ Make up your mind, this is clarity ♪ 1840 01:45:43,600 --> 01:45:47,933 ♪ Clarity that you did not have before ♪ 1841 01:45:47,933 --> 01:45:52,500 ♪ The treatment is strong, but lasts only so long ♪ 1842 01:45:52,500 --> 01:45:55,900 ♪ It may be your mind's needing more ♪ 1843 01:45:55,900 --> 01:45:57,600 -Let's say that's not it. 1844 01:45:57,600 --> 01:46:00,466 The ECT is powerful. It gave you your life back. 1845 01:46:00,466 --> 01:46:02,400 But the effects fade, 1846 01:46:02,400 --> 01:46:04,233 and additional treatments are almost always needed. 1847 01:46:04,233 --> 01:46:06,333 -That wasn't on the form. 1848 01:46:06,333 --> 01:46:09,766 -♪ Make up your mind that you'll try again ♪ 1849 01:46:10,700 --> 01:46:14,200 ♪ Make up your mind, there are moments of light ♪ 1850 01:46:14,200 --> 01:46:18,666 ♪ The one thing that's sure is that there is no cure ♪ 1851 01:46:18,666 --> 01:46:21,533 ♪ But that doesn't mean we don't fight ♪ 1852 01:46:21,533 --> 01:46:24,633 -♪ Catch me, I'm falling ♪ -We'll return to talk therapy. 1853 01:46:24,633 --> 01:46:28,600 -♪ Sinking and sprawling ♪ -There's still work to do. 1854 01:46:28,600 --> 01:46:31,900 -♪ Maybe I'll let myself fall ♪ 1855 01:46:31,900 --> 01:46:35,166 ♪ Watch me, I'm falling ♪ -We might have to look at, uh... 1856 01:46:35,166 --> 01:46:38,200 -♪ Maybe the falling ♪ -...a new drug regimen. 1857 01:46:38,200 --> 01:46:40,066 -♪ Isn't so bad after all ♪ 1858 01:46:40,066 --> 01:46:41,833 -There are other promising therapies. 1859 01:46:41,833 --> 01:46:44,400 EMDR, for instance, or rTMS. -♪ Isn't so bad after all ♪ 1860 01:46:44,400 --> 01:46:47,033 ♪ Watch me, I'm falling ♪ -Diana! 1861 01:46:47,033 --> 01:46:48,633 -♪ Watch me, I'm flying ♪ -♪ Make up your mind ♪ 1862 01:46:48,633 --> 01:46:50,966 -♪ Somehow surviving ♪ 1863 01:46:50,966 --> 01:46:53,400 -Diana, you have a chronic illness! 1864 01:46:54,333 --> 01:46:57,400 Like diabetes or hypertension, if left untreated, 1865 01:46:57,400 --> 01:47:00,766 it could be catastrophic. 1866 01:47:00,766 --> 01:47:03,266 -I understand. 1867 01:47:04,700 --> 01:47:06,633 But there has to be another way. 1868 01:47:06,633 --> 01:47:10,466 -♪ Stay with me, try again ♪ 1869 01:47:10,466 --> 01:47:14,733 ♪ Don't walk out on treatment, don't lose what you've won ♪ 1870 01:47:14,733 --> 01:47:19,833 ♪ You've struggled for years, but you've only begun ♪ 1871 01:47:22,033 --> 01:47:28,600 -My first psychiatrist told me that, according to the manual, 1872 01:47:28,600 --> 01:47:33,000 grief that continues past six months is pathological 1873 01:47:33,000 --> 01:47:34,233 and should be medicated. 1874 01:47:37,266 --> 01:47:39,066 Six months. 1875 01:47:41,233 --> 01:47:43,666 For the life of my child. 1876 01:47:45,300 --> 01:47:46,933 Who makes these decisions? 1877 01:47:46,933 --> 01:47:48,866 -It's a guideline, nothing more. 1878 01:47:48,866 --> 01:47:52,533 -Yes. Nothing more. 1879 01:47:52,533 --> 01:47:56,566 -♪ Stay with me, try again ♪ 1880 01:47:56,566 --> 01:47:58,900 ♪ Is medicine magic? ♪ 1881 01:47:58,900 --> 01:48:00,900 ♪ You know that it's not ♪ 1882 01:48:00,900 --> 01:48:05,400 ♪ We know it's not perfect, but it's what we've got ♪ 1883 01:48:06,333 --> 01:48:11,433 ♪ That's all that we've got ♪ 1884 01:48:14,700 --> 01:48:17,266 -Goodbye, Dr. Madden. 1885 01:48:18,866 --> 01:48:23,633 ♪♪ 1886 01:48:23,633 --> 01:48:25,133 -So, what did he say? 1887 01:48:27,033 --> 01:48:32,666 -Uh, he said I could do more ECT or go back on the meds. 1888 01:48:34,266 --> 01:48:36,100 -Okay, so, what are you gonna do? 1889 01:48:36,100 --> 01:48:37,833 -I'm gonna take you to your dance. 1890 01:48:37,833 --> 01:48:39,700 -Mom... 1891 01:48:39,700 --> 01:48:41,633 -It's time you start thinking of your own happiness. 1892 01:48:41,633 --> 01:48:44,866 It's not happiness. It's Henry. 1893 01:48:48,500 --> 01:48:50,233 -You love him. 1894 01:48:52,300 --> 01:48:55,833 -Mom, you can't just walk out on your doctor. 1895 01:48:56,533 --> 01:49:00,133 -♪ Maybe I've lost it at last ♪ 1896 01:49:00,133 --> 01:49:02,833 ♪♪ 1897 01:49:02,833 --> 01:49:08,966 ♪ Maybe my last lucid moment has passed ♪ 1898 01:49:08,966 --> 01:49:12,666 ♪ I'm dancing with death, I suppose ♪ 1899 01:49:12,666 --> 01:49:15,000 ♪♪ 1900 01:49:15,000 --> 01:49:18,533 ♪ But, really, who knows? ♪ 1901 01:49:18,533 --> 01:49:20,833 ♪♪ 1902 01:49:20,833 --> 01:49:26,533 ♪ Maybe I'm tired of the game ♪ 1903 01:49:26,533 --> 01:49:32,433 ♪ Of coming up short of the rules, of the shame ♪ 1904 01:49:32,433 --> 01:49:38,466 ♪ And maybe you feel that way, too ♪ 1905 01:49:38,466 --> 01:49:42,833 ♪ I see me in you ♪ 1906 01:49:42,833 --> 01:49:48,666 ♪ A girl full of anger and hope ♪ 1907 01:49:48,666 --> 01:49:54,200 ♪ A girl with a mother who just couldn't cope ♪ 1908 01:49:54,200 --> 01:49:56,800 ♪♪ 1909 01:49:56,800 --> 01:50:00,900 ♪ A girl who felt caught ♪ 1910 01:50:00,900 --> 01:50:05,766 ♪ And thought no one could see ♪ 1911 01:50:05,766 --> 01:50:10,500 ♪ But maybe one day, she'll be free ♪ 1912 01:50:10,500 --> 01:50:13,333 -♪ It's so lovely that you're sharing ♪ 1913 01:50:13,333 --> 01:50:16,033 ♪ No, really, I'm all ears ♪ 1914 01:50:16,033 --> 01:50:21,700 ♪ But where has all this caring been for sixteen years? ♪ 1915 01:50:21,700 --> 01:50:27,566 ♪ For all those years I prayed that you'd go away for good ♪ 1916 01:50:27,566 --> 01:50:29,600 ♪♪ 1917 01:50:29,600 --> 01:50:34,866 ♪ Half the time afraid that you really would ♪ 1918 01:50:34,866 --> 01:50:37,133 ♪ When I thought you might be dying ♪ 1919 01:50:37,133 --> 01:50:40,500 ♪ I cried for all we'd never be ♪ 1920 01:50:40,500 --> 01:50:45,566 ♪ But there'll be no more crying ♪ 1921 01:50:45,566 --> 01:50:47,800 ♪ Not for me ♪ 1922 01:50:47,800 --> 01:50:51,200 -♪ Things will get better, you'll see ♪ 1923 01:50:51,200 --> 01:50:54,466 -♪ Not for me ♪ 1924 01:50:54,466 --> 01:50:56,600 -♪ You'll see ♪ -No! 1925 01:50:56,600 --> 01:51:02,500 -♪ Not for me ♪ -♪ You'll see ♪ 1926 01:51:02,500 --> 01:51:07,566 -♪ Not for m-e-e ♪ -♪ You'll s-e-ee ♪ 1927 01:51:07,566 --> 01:51:11,133 ♪♪ 1928 01:51:13,600 --> 01:51:17,733 ♪ Maybe we can't be okay ♪ 1929 01:51:17,733 --> 01:51:20,533 ♪♪ 1930 01:51:20,533 --> 01:51:26,200 ♪But maybe we're tough, and we'll try anyway ♪ 1931 01:51:26,200 --> 01:51:28,233 ♪♪ 1932 01:51:28,233 --> 01:51:31,033 ♪ We'll live with what's real ♪ 1933 01:51:31,033 --> 01:51:33,466 ♪♪ 1934 01:51:33,466 --> 01:51:36,200 ♪ Let go of what's past ♪ 1935 01:51:36,200 --> 01:51:38,366 ♪♪ 1936 01:51:38,366 --> 01:51:39,866 ♪ And maybe I'll see you at last ♪ 1937 01:51:42,566 --> 01:51:45,300 ♪♪ 1938 01:51:45,300 --> 01:51:47,166 -I don't believe you. 1939 01:51:47,166 --> 01:51:51,733 ♪♪ 1940 01:51:51,733 --> 01:51:56,466 -17 years ago, your brother died of an intestinal obstruction. 1941 01:51:58,933 --> 01:52:00,633 He was 8 months old. 1942 01:52:07,200 --> 01:52:10,133 I know I -- I couldn't say that to you before. 1943 01:52:11,233 --> 01:52:13,133 I'm sorry. 1944 01:52:13,133 --> 01:52:17,366 ♪♪ 1945 01:52:17,366 --> 01:52:20,900 We wanted to give you a normal life. 1946 01:52:20,900 --> 01:52:23,000 ♪♪ 1947 01:52:23,000 --> 01:52:25,366 I realize I have no clue what that is. 1948 01:52:29,833 --> 01:52:34,533 -♪ I don't need a life that's normal ♪ 1949 01:52:34,533 --> 01:52:38,766 ♪ That's way too far away ♪ 1950 01:52:38,766 --> 01:52:43,933 ♪ But something next to normal would be okay ♪ 1951 01:52:43,933 --> 01:52:46,233 ♪♪ 1952 01:52:46,233 --> 01:52:49,800 ♪ Yeah, something next to normal ♪ 1953 01:52:49,800 --> 01:52:54,833 ♪ That's the thing I'd like to try ♪ 1954 01:52:54,833 --> 01:53:00,300 ♪ Close enough to normal ♪ 1955 01:53:00,300 --> 01:53:04,366 ♪ To get by ♪ 1956 01:53:04,366 --> 01:53:07,400 ♪♪ 1957 01:53:07,400 --> 01:53:11,600 -♪ We'll get by ♪ 1958 01:53:13,700 --> 01:53:16,266 -♪ We'll get by ♪ 1959 01:53:16,266 --> 01:53:18,100 ♪♪ 1960 01:53:18,100 --> 01:53:19,866 -Okay. 1961 01:53:22,800 --> 01:53:24,500 Now go to your dance. 1962 01:53:24,500 --> 01:53:42,300 ♪♪ 1963 01:53:42,300 --> 01:53:46,700 -♪ Hey ♪ 1964 01:53:46,700 --> 01:53:48,766 -♪ You look like a star ♪ 1965 01:53:48,766 --> 01:53:50,933 ♪♪ 1966 01:53:50,933 --> 01:53:54,633 ♪ A vision in blue ♪ 1967 01:53:54,633 --> 01:53:57,166 -Oh, I do. 1968 01:53:57,166 --> 01:53:59,566 -♪ And you are ♪ 1969 01:53:59,566 --> 01:54:01,633 ♪ Hey ♪ 1970 01:54:01,633 --> 01:54:03,300 ♪ You came ♪ 1971 01:54:03,300 --> 01:54:07,666 -♪ Well, I said that I might ♪ 1972 01:54:07,666 --> 01:54:11,333 -♪ I thought we were through ♪ 1973 01:54:11,333 --> 01:54:13,466 ♪ Me and you ♪ 1974 01:54:13,466 --> 01:54:15,633 -♪ Not tonight ♪ 1975 01:54:15,633 --> 01:54:17,833 -♪ Will your mom be okay? ♪ 1976 01:54:17,833 --> 01:54:19,866 -♪ Well, she might be someday ♪ 1977 01:54:19,866 --> 01:54:22,100 -♪ But for now, it's all fine? ♪ 1978 01:54:22,100 --> 01:54:24,200 -♪ She's still on my mind ♪ 1979 01:54:24,200 --> 01:54:26,600 -♪ Can you leave it behind? Stay ♪ 1980 01:54:26,600 --> 01:54:28,666 -♪ Let's see this thing through ♪ 1981 01:54:28,666 --> 01:54:30,433 -♪ Am I crazy? ♪ 1982 01:54:30,433 --> 01:54:33,800 ♪ I might end up crazy ♪ 1983 01:54:33,800 --> 01:54:36,466 -♪ I'll be here for you ♪ 1984 01:54:36,466 --> 01:54:39,166 -♪ You say that right here ♪ 1985 01:54:39,166 --> 01:54:43,433 ♪ But then give it a year, or ten years, or a life ♪ 1986 01:54:43,433 --> 01:54:45,333 ♪ I could end up your wife ♪ 1987 01:54:45,333 --> 01:54:47,300 ♪ Sitting, staring at walls ♪ 1988 01:54:47,300 --> 01:54:49,066 ♪ Throwing crap down the stairs ♪ 1989 01:54:49,066 --> 01:54:50,966 ♪ Freaking out at the store ♪ 1990 01:54:50,966 --> 01:54:52,566 ♪ Running nude down the street ♪ 1991 01:54:52,566 --> 01:54:54,300 ♪ Bleeding out in the bath ♪ 1992 01:54:54,300 --> 01:54:56,700 -Shh! -[ Crying ] 1993 01:54:59,200 --> 01:55:01,766 -♪ Perfect for you ♪ 1994 01:55:02,800 --> 01:55:06,766 ♪ I will be perfect for you ♪ 1995 01:55:07,766 --> 01:55:10,866 ♪ So you could go crazy, or I could go crazy ♪ 1996 01:55:13,566 --> 01:55:15,300 ♪ It's true ♪ 1997 01:55:15,300 --> 01:55:17,933 ♪♪ 1998 01:55:17,933 --> 01:55:21,333 ♪ Sometimes life is insane ♪ 1999 01:55:21,333 --> 01:55:22,466 ♪♪ 2000 01:55:22,466 --> 01:55:28,633 ♪ But crazy I know I can do ♪ 2001 01:55:28,633 --> 01:55:33,900 ♪ 'Cause crazy is perfect, and messed-up is perfect ♪ 2002 01:55:33,900 --> 01:55:37,300 ♪ So I will be perfect ♪ 2003 01:55:37,300 --> 01:55:39,733 ♪♪ 2004 01:55:39,733 --> 01:55:41,900 -♪ Perfect ♪ 2005 01:55:41,900 --> 01:55:45,900 ♪♪ 2006 01:55:45,900 --> 01:55:55,900 -♪ Perfect for you ♪♪ 2007 01:55:55,900 --> 01:56:12,600 ♪♪ 2008 01:56:12,600 --> 01:56:16,000 -♪ So, anyway ♪ 2009 01:56:16,000 --> 01:56:17,200 ♪ I'm leaving ♪ 2010 01:56:19,566 --> 01:56:21,466 ♪ I thought you'd like to know ♪ 2011 01:56:23,333 --> 01:56:27,033 ♪ You're faithful, come what may ♪ 2012 01:56:27,033 --> 01:56:30,933 ♪ But clearly I can't stay ♪ 2013 01:56:30,933 --> 01:56:34,233 ♪ We'd both go mad that way ♪ 2014 01:56:36,333 --> 01:56:39,633 ♪ So, here I go ♪ 2015 01:56:39,633 --> 01:56:42,633 ♪♪ 2016 01:56:42,633 --> 01:56:46,033 ♪ And anyway ♪ 2017 01:56:46,033 --> 01:56:50,233 ♪ I'm leaving ♪ 2018 01:56:50,233 --> 01:56:51,933 ♪ I guess that you can see ♪ 2019 01:56:51,933 --> 01:56:54,600 ♪♪ 2020 01:56:54,600 --> 01:56:57,300 ♪ I'll try this on my own ♪ 2021 01:56:57,300 --> 01:56:59,800 ♪ A life I've never known ♪ 2022 01:56:59,800 --> 01:57:03,633 ♪ I'll face the dread alone ♪ 2023 01:57:03,633 --> 01:57:05,666 ♪♪ 2024 01:57:05,666 --> 01:57:12,433 ♪ But I'll be free ♪ 2025 01:57:12,433 --> 01:57:13,766 ♪♪ 2026 01:57:13,766 --> 01:57:17,966 ♪ With you always beside me ♪ 2027 01:57:17,966 --> 01:57:21,300 ♪ To catch me when I fall ♪ 2028 01:57:21,300 --> 01:57:27,400 ♪ I'd never get to know the feel of solid ground at all ♪ 2029 01:57:27,400 --> 01:57:35,433 ♪ With you always believing that we could still come through ♪ 2030 01:57:35,433 --> 01:57:39,633 ♪ It makes me feel the fool to know that it's not true ♪ 2031 01:57:39,633 --> 01:57:42,900 ♪♪ 2032 01:57:42,900 --> 01:57:47,566 ♪ What doctors call dysfunction, we tried to call romance ♪ 2033 01:57:47,566 --> 01:57:49,166 ♪ And true, it's quite a trick ♪ 2034 01:57:49,166 --> 01:57:51,933 ♪ To tell the dancers from the dance ♪ 2035 01:57:51,933 --> 01:57:54,733 ♪ But rather than let chance take me ♪ 2036 01:57:56,233 --> 01:58:03,666 ♪ I'll take a chance ♪ 2037 01:58:03,666 --> 01:58:06,400 ♪♪ 2038 01:58:06,400 --> 01:58:09,033 ♪ I'll take a chance on leaving ♪ 2039 01:58:09,033 --> 01:58:11,700 ♪♪ 2040 01:58:11,700 --> 01:58:13,800 ♪ It's that or stay and die ♪ 2041 01:58:13,800 --> 01:58:16,833 ♪♪ 2042 01:58:16,833 --> 01:58:21,900 ♪ I loved you once, and though you love me still, I know ♪ 2043 01:58:21,900 --> 01:58:27,333 ♪ It's time for me to fly ♪ 2044 01:58:27,333 --> 01:58:30,133 ♪♪ 2045 01:58:30,133 --> 01:58:35,133 ♪ I loved you once, and though ♪ 2046 01:58:35,133 --> 01:58:40,500 ♪ I love you still, I know ♪ 2047 01:58:40,500 --> 01:58:49,400 ♪ It's time for me to go ♪ 2048 01:58:49,400 --> 01:58:53,133 ♪♪ 2049 01:58:53,133 --> 01:58:54,800 ♪ And so... ♪ 2050 01:58:58,100 --> 01:59:02,333 ♪ Goodbye ♪ 2051 01:59:02,333 --> 01:59:26,733 ♪♪ 2052 01:59:26,733 --> 01:59:30,666 -♪ I am the one who loved you ♪ 2053 01:59:30,666 --> 01:59:33,566 ♪ I am the one who stayed ♪ 2054 01:59:33,566 --> 01:59:35,733 ♪ I am the one ♪ 2055 01:59:35,733 --> 01:59:41,033 ♪ And you walked away ♪ 2056 01:59:41,033 --> 01:59:42,433 ♪♪ 2057 01:59:42,433 --> 01:59:45,866 ♪ I am the one who waited ♪ 2058 01:59:45,866 --> 01:59:52,566 ♪ And now you act like you just don't give a damn ♪ 2059 01:59:52,566 --> 01:59:57,366 ♪ Like you never knew who I am ♪ 2060 01:59:57,366 --> 02:00:00,366 -♪ I am the one who knows you ♪ -♪ I am ♪ 2061 02:00:00,366 --> 02:00:03,000 -♪ I am the one you fear ♪ -♪ I am ♪ 2062 02:00:03,000 --> 02:00:08,466 -♪ I am the one who's always been here ♪ 2063 02:00:08,466 --> 02:00:09,666 -♪ I am ♪ 2064 02:00:09,666 --> 02:00:11,266 -♪ I am the one who'll hear you ♪ 2065 02:00:11,266 --> 02:00:12,733 -♪ I am ♪ 2066 02:00:12,733 --> 02:00:18,533 -♪ I know you told her that I'm not worth a damn ♪ 2067 02:00:18,533 --> 02:00:22,933 ♪ But I know you know who I am ♪ 2068 02:00:22,933 --> 02:00:25,133 ♪♪ 2069 02:00:25,133 --> 02:00:26,200 -No. 2070 02:00:26,200 --> 02:00:30,866 -♪ I know you know who I am ♪ 2071 02:00:30,866 --> 02:00:32,300 -Can't you just leave me alone? 2072 02:00:32,300 --> 02:00:36,566 -♪ I know you know who I am ♪ 2073 02:00:36,566 --> 02:00:38,466 -Why didn't you go with her? 2074 02:00:38,466 --> 02:00:41,733 -♪ 'Cause I'm holding on ♪ 2075 02:00:41,733 --> 02:00:44,066 -Let me go! 2076 02:00:44,066 --> 02:00:46,900 -♪ And I won't let go ♪ 2077 02:00:46,900 --> 02:00:48,433 -♪ Let me go ♪ 2078 02:00:48,433 --> 02:00:51,400 -♪ I want you to know ♪ -♪ You don't know ♪ 2079 02:00:51,400 --> 02:00:53,700 -♪ I am the one who held you ♪ 2080 02:00:53,700 --> 02:00:55,833 ♪ I am the one who cried ♪ 2081 02:00:55,833 --> 02:01:00,300 ♪ I am the one who watched while you died ♪ 2082 02:01:00,300 --> 02:01:01,900 ♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 2083 02:01:01,900 --> 02:01:04,233 ♪ I am the one who loved you ♪ 2084 02:01:04,233 --> 02:01:09,266 ♪ I tried pretending that I don't give a damn ♪ 2085 02:01:09,266 --> 02:01:13,533 ♪ But you've always known who I am ♪ 2086 02:01:13,533 --> 02:01:15,466 ♪♪ 2087 02:01:15,466 --> 02:01:16,500 -Gabe. 2088 02:01:16,500 --> 02:01:19,166 ♪♪ 2089 02:01:19,166 --> 02:01:20,433 Gabriel. 2090 02:01:20,433 --> 02:01:23,666 ♪♪ 2091 02:01:23,666 --> 02:01:25,433 -Hi, Dad. 2092 02:01:25,433 --> 02:01:29,133 ♪♪ 2093 02:01:29,133 --> 02:01:31,333 -Dad? 2094 02:01:32,900 --> 02:01:34,733 What's going on? Why are the lights off? 2095 02:01:39,500 --> 02:01:40,866 Where's Mom? 2096 02:01:43,500 --> 02:01:46,400 -She's... 2097 02:01:46,400 --> 02:01:49,933 Uh, she's, uh... 2098 02:01:52,900 --> 02:01:54,833 -Gone? 2099 02:01:54,833 --> 02:01:56,700 -Yeah. 2100 02:02:02,233 --> 02:02:03,900 -So, it's, uh... 2101 02:02:05,833 --> 02:02:08,066 It's just me and you for now. 2102 02:02:11,133 --> 02:02:12,233 -Oh... 2103 02:02:16,700 --> 02:02:18,233 -Yeah. 2104 02:02:23,066 --> 02:02:24,266 -[ Crying ] 2105 02:02:34,433 --> 02:02:36,066 -[ Cries ] 2106 02:02:37,333 --> 02:02:39,333 -Hey. 2107 02:02:39,333 --> 02:02:40,800 Okay. 2108 02:02:41,933 --> 02:02:43,300 Okay. 2109 02:02:43,300 --> 02:02:44,700 -[ Crying ] 2110 02:02:44,700 --> 02:02:47,266 ♪♪ 2111 02:02:47,266 --> 02:02:50,600 -♪ We need some light ♪ 2112 02:02:50,600 --> 02:02:53,033 ♪♪ 2113 02:02:53,033 --> 02:02:59,333 ♪ First of all, we need some light ♪ 2114 02:02:59,333 --> 02:03:04,100 ♪ You can't sit here in the dark ♪ 2115 02:03:04,100 --> 02:03:07,300 ♪ And all alone ♪ 2116 02:03:07,300 --> 02:03:10,000 ♪ It's a sorry sight ♪ 2117 02:03:10,000 --> 02:03:13,633 ♪ It's just you and me ♪ 2118 02:03:13,633 --> 02:03:15,033 [ Smooches ] 2119 02:03:15,033 --> 02:03:16,666 ♪♪ 2120 02:03:16,666 --> 02:03:20,300 ♪ We'll live, you'll see ♪ 2121 02:03:20,300 --> 02:03:26,733 ♪♪ 2122 02:03:26,733 --> 02:03:31,700 -♪ Night after night ♪ 2123 02:03:31,700 --> 02:03:37,700 ♪ We'd sit and wait for the morning light ♪ 2124 02:03:37,700 --> 02:03:42,166 ♪ But we've waited far too long ♪ 2125 02:03:42,166 --> 02:03:47,833 ♪ For all that's wrong to be made right ♪ 2126 02:03:47,833 --> 02:03:53,033 -♪ Day after day ♪ 2127 02:03:53,033 --> 02:03:58,733 ♪ Wishing all our cares away ♪ 2128 02:03:58,733 --> 02:04:03,500 ♪ Trying to fight the things we feel ♪ 2129 02:04:03,500 --> 02:04:09,266 ♪ But some hurts never heal ♪ 2130 02:04:09,266 --> 02:04:14,000 ♪ Some ghosts are never gone ♪ 2131 02:04:14,000 --> 02:04:18,900 ♪ But we go on ♪ 2132 02:04:18,900 --> 02:04:23,266 ♪ We still go on ♪ 2133 02:04:23,266 --> 02:04:28,600 ♪ And you find some way to survive ♪ 2134 02:04:28,600 --> 02:04:37,000 ♪ And you find out you don't have to be happy at all ♪ 2135 02:04:37,000 --> 02:04:41,466 ♪ To be happy you're alive 2136 02:04:41,466 --> 02:04:44,133 -Do you know where she went? Have you heard from her? 2137 02:04:44,133 --> 02:04:45,900 -Yeah. Yeah, I heard from her. 2138 02:04:45,900 --> 02:04:48,033 She's staying with my grandparents. 2139 02:04:48,033 --> 02:04:50,233 ♪♪ 2140 02:04:50,233 --> 02:04:52,200 -Do they actually exist? 2141 02:04:52,200 --> 02:04:53,766 [ Chuckles ] 2142 02:04:53,766 --> 02:04:56,333 -Yes. 2143 02:04:56,333 --> 02:04:58,133 -So, that's good, right? 2144 02:04:58,133 --> 02:05:00,533 -Well, going home has never been a solution 2145 02:05:00,533 --> 02:05:01,900 to any of my problems. 2146 02:05:01,900 --> 02:05:03,600 -Well, that's what you got me for. 2147 02:05:03,600 --> 02:05:05,100 -Seriously? 2148 02:05:05,100 --> 02:05:07,600 You're like number three on my list of issues. 2149 02:05:08,500 --> 02:05:11,266 -You keep a list? -Don't worry, Henry. 2150 02:05:11,266 --> 02:05:13,600 You're my favorite problem. 2151 02:05:13,600 --> 02:05:15,233 -That's all I ask. 2152 02:05:15,233 --> 02:05:20,900 -♪ Day after day ♪ 2153 02:05:20,900 --> 02:05:26,200 ♪ Give me clouds and rain and gray ♪ 2154 02:05:26,200 --> 02:05:30,200 ♪ Give me pain if that's what's real ♪ 2155 02:05:30,200 --> 02:05:36,466 -♪ It's the price we pay to feel ♪ 2156 02:05:36,466 --> 02:05:40,300 ♪ The price of love is loss ♪ 2157 02:05:40,300 --> 02:05:44,966 ♪ But still we pay ♪ 2158 02:05:44,966 --> 02:05:51,200 -♪ We love anyway ♪ 2159 02:05:51,200 --> 02:05:53,133 -Look, I know you can't tell me if you're treating her. 2160 02:05:53,133 --> 02:05:55,166 Uh, I just wonder if she's okay. 2161 02:05:55,166 --> 02:06:00,066 -I think she's working on it, and she's aware of the risks. 2162 02:06:00,066 --> 02:06:03,000 -Do you think she'll come home? 2163 02:06:03,000 --> 02:06:05,700 -It's hard to say. -Right. 2164 02:06:05,700 --> 02:06:07,733 -Dan... 2165 02:06:07,733 --> 02:06:11,100 Would you like me to recommend someone for you to talk to? 2166 02:06:11,100 --> 02:06:13,966 -No. 2167 02:06:13,966 --> 02:06:16,466 Yes. Yes, I would, thank you. 2168 02:06:16,466 --> 02:06:18,833 ♪♪ 2169 02:06:18,833 --> 02:06:21,466 -♪ And when the night has finally gone ♪ 2170 02:06:21,466 --> 02:06:24,100 ♪ And when we see the new day dawn ♪ 2171 02:06:24,100 --> 02:06:27,300 ♪ We'll wonder how we wandered for so long, so blind ♪ 2172 02:06:28,900 --> 02:06:31,533 ♪ The wasted world we thought we knew ♪ 2173 02:06:31,533 --> 02:06:34,066 ♪ The light will make it look brand-new ♪ 2174 02:06:34,066 --> 02:06:37,100 ♪ So, let it ♪ 2175 02:06:37,100 --> 02:06:39,333 ♪ Let it ♪ 2176 02:06:39,333 --> 02:06:42,166 ♪ So, let it ♪ 2177 02:06:42,166 --> 02:06:43,833 ♪ Let it ♪ 2178 02:06:43,833 --> 02:06:47,133 -♪ Let it shine ♪ 2179 02:06:47,133 --> 02:06:54,000 ♪ Shine ♪ 2180 02:06:54,000 --> 02:06:58,700 ♪ Day after day ♪ 2181 02:06:58,700 --> 02:07:04,233 ♪ We'll find the will to find our way ♪ 2182 02:07:04,233 --> 02:07:08,666 ♪ Knowing that the darkest skies ♪ 2183 02:07:08,666 --> 02:07:13,533 ♪ Will someday see the sun ♪ 2184 02:07:13,533 --> 02:07:14,666 ♪♪ 2185 02:07:14,666 --> 02:07:19,600 -♪ When our long night is done ♪ 2186 02:07:19,600 --> 02:07:28,466 ♪ There will be light ♪ 2187 02:07:28,466 --> 02:07:33,366 ♪ When we open up our lives ♪ 2188 02:07:33,366 --> 02:07:37,800 ♪ Sons and daughters, husbands, wives ♪ 2189 02:07:37,800 --> 02:07:42,766 ♪ And fight that fight ♪ 2190 02:07:42,766 --> 02:07:55,666 ♪ There will be light ♪ 2191 02:07:55,666 --> 02:07:57,166 ♪♪ 2192 02:07:57,166 --> 02:08:07,233 ♪ There will be light ♪ 2193 02:08:07,233 --> 02:08:10,366 ♪♪ 2194 02:08:10,366 --> 02:08:15,833 [ Cheers and applause ] 2195 02:08:26,300 --> 02:08:30,066 [ Cheers and applause ] 2196 02:08:40,500 --> 02:08:43,833 [ Cheers and applause ] 2197 02:08:43,833 --> 02:08:45,366 -To find out more about this 2198 02:08:45,366 --> 02:08:47,233 and other "Great Performances" programs, 2199 02:08:47,233 --> 02:08:50,300 visit pbs.org/greatperformances 2200 02:08:50,300 --> 02:08:53,133 and follow us on Facebook, X, and Instagram. 2201 02:08:53,133 --> 02:08:56,433 [ Cheers and applause ] 2202 02:09:07,633 --> 02:09:10,233 [ Cheers and applause ] 2203 02:09:19,633 --> 02:09:22,333 [ Cheers and applause ] 2204 02:09:31,733 --> 02:09:33,900 [ Cheers and applause ]